Update

[onelittlerose]

Today has been a little shaky. The morning was really tough at home, just a lot of tension in the family and a lot of uncertainty- the drive to school was tedious and anxiety provoking as well. I had a half hour of free time before my french class, and spent some of it with my boyfriend which was the highlight of my day so far, and as always. Never fails to make me happier <3 But in class I find it very hard to focus because of the constant paranoia, feeling unsafe and unwell and always jumpy at the smallest things. And I cry at the drop of a hat now, which leads me to feel weak and insecure. Any ideas on coping strategies?

[sheila1kerry]

Hi again little rose. I read your posts this morning and i have been thinking about you through the day, wondering if you are ok. You sound so much better now, thank goodness. If you don't mind is this recent, also have you received any help? You have found a really good site, the people on here seem to really care about each other. Sometimes being able to speak to strangers is actually easier than talking to people we know.

So glad you sound better than this morning. Time really does heal, at least we learn how to live with things that have happened to us.

Take care❤️

[onelittlerose in reply to sheila1kerry]

This is recent, as of this morning, and I haven't gotten any help from my therapists lately, but my boyfriend has done me a world of good as per usual. <3

[sheila1kerry in reply to onelittlerose]

He sounds wonderful, that is the best help you can have, someone who is loving and patient. Have you always suffered with anxiety ? I read that you get panic attacks as well. That is one of my issues but it lead on to agoraphobia because i did not seek help and just tried to avoid everything. How i regret not getting professional help before it got out of hand. Cutting you also mention, i have never been tempted but i know it is not an answer, it is just a kind of release of the emotions you are keeping in.

Ask for help little rose if you feel you need it. There are people trained to help, it may take time but you can have a great future.

Take care❤️

[onelittlerose in reply to sheila1kerry]

I have suffered from anxiety in various forms since I was three, but it progressed rapidly after becoming a victim of rape roughly three years ago. I've developed PTSD stemming from that, as well as emetophobia, anorexia, social anxiety and GED. Cutting is a very good outlet for me, but of course it isn't healthy and is something I am actively working to recover from.

[Hopeful-Tinkerbell]

You really need a therapist. They can help you identify triggers and learn coping skills. Deep breathing of course. Slow and hold it then breath out long and slow. Essential oils. Bubble baths etc. I just drove over an hour and a half home and don’t remember any of it. Journaling really helps. It really sounds like you need to talk to a counselor. I’m having a really bad night I just wanted you to know there is someone here for you. Could you get a small recorder and tape the classes so you can relisten to it at home for anything you missed? My mom in law had to get on ADD medicine because she couldn’t even focus long enough to tell if her stove was off or not due to severe anxiety. There are natural remedies you can try to help with attention. Diet. Look that up on line along with coping mechanisms for anxiety. I have a proof journal. You list something that scares you and then you list things you have done in the past and that is your proof you can do it. For example: if I was having surgery and I was nervous I would list other surgeries I’ve made it through and done well as proof I can do it. Or if I’m scared of spiders. I write about a time I’ve seen a spider and nothing happened. That’s examples but it shows me I can do it. Hope I’ve helped somehow. Wish I could do more. Sorry.

[onelittlerose in reply to Hopeful-Tinkerbell]

This is a big help <3 I see multiple therapists, and even though they help I still have a rough time. I hope you feel better too <3

[sheila1kerry]

Hi little rose, have you looked into the alternative therapies at all? If traditional is not helping you enoough maybe look into other methods. Mad though it sounds high doded of some vitamins have helped me. There is a lot of info on the net "doctoryourself.com" is one. Also CBT can be helpful for some people, it has a high success rate with anxiety problems. Dr. Adrian Cocx. (spelling?) has written books on it explaining how it works.

Stay strong❤️