since my last post, things have gotten worse. My ex is now seeing someone else. I have lost all my friends, I blame myself. I should never have isolated myself from my friends.
Last week I had some self harm thoughts, I tried my hardest not to act on it but the more I thought about it, I ended up doing it. I cut deeply into my thigh.
On Wednesday night I had the same thoughts but I didn't want to self harm this time because it was only going to be a temporary thing. I ended up going for a walk and tried to kill myself. I walked into a road where a car was driving by, they stopped and called for help. I ended up in the hospital until the early hours of the morning.
I have just cut again on my thigh and I can't stop having these thoughts.