Things are getting bad...

[Danny779]

Im new to this whole talking about my depession thing. Iv always bottled it all up and dealing with it myself but iv hit a brick wall. Iv lost my daughter, the love of my life, every friend but 2 and my entire family. Im not sure where to go or even how to start feeling even a little better all i know is i need help and iv always refused to go to therapy or anything.

[Hidden]

Goodness! Why did so many people in your life leave?

[Danny779 in reply to Hidden]

Me and the girl i love split up due to a mutual agreement that we werent meant to be from alot of fights, it was out of thinking what was best for our daughter. I moved away from my parents to live with my brother so i could live close enough to see my daughter and he stabbed me in the back and i was forced to move away (states away) then i was told by my daughters mother i wasnt allowed to see my daughter unless i moved back there (long story about that) but all of my so called friends no one was there to help me at all so i treated everyone as an enemy and cut everyone out that had no interest in helping so i just went down the line until it was pretty much just me alone...

[Hidden in reply to Danny779]

Wow...I’m sorry to hear that. We all have to make choices. You should find that talking about your depression is really helpful. No shame in it, especially in a forum like this one where the people understand. Just remember Danny, that you didn’t “lose” all of those friends and family members from your life. You “chose” to eliminate them. I would probably reconsider if it were me...

[Danny779 in reply to Hidden]

I hope it helps, iv always been the person to help everyone else with depression and problems but when it came to me id get ignored every time... When i was 18 my parents abandoned me in my home city and moved over night states away, i chose to elimate anyone that turned their back on me in my time of need, id die to help a friend survive (metaphorically speaking) and did that for so many people. I turned cold hearted when i realised no one cared especially when i went missing for 9 months

[Hidden in reply to Danny779]

Understood...that’s atrocious! Well, you’re never alone. You can always visit this forum. I wish you peace of mind and joy!

[Btsrslyffft]

I hear ya. Alot of people here are having the same feelings of depression. Try to focus on what you have going for you. Like is the rest of your health okay? Be happy you can walk....be happy you dont have to live on the streets....be happy you have a job... I hope this helps. I find that comming here and reading posts make me feel not so alone in my depression. Cheers

[Danny779 in reply to Btsrslyffft]

My health physically is good, the past 2 weeks iv barely been sleeping, iv had a constant migraine every day, i chain smoke a pack of cigarettes every 3-6 hours. I should be happy for all that i have but sadly none of it helps because the 1 thing that actually made me feel happiness was taken from me. Reading everyones posts helps in certain ways especially if some one is having a better day than before.

[Hidden]

First off welcome!!! You will find all kinds of love & support here...including me! Are you getting any help? Now is the time if not...stay strong...I'm here for you! Peace, love & hugs!!! XXX

[fauxartist]

Sometimes we do have to hit rock bottom Danny ...and the only way to go from there is up. But you have to decide for yourself what is best for you. I know many of us here, including myself have and do go to therapy. It is a trial and error journey like with anything, it may take a few different therapists to find one that is a good 'fit' for you. I and other's take SSRI's to help with this disease of depression, as it is a chemical imbalance in the brain, not our fault...it's just nature. Again that is a personal choice to take medication, and does involve trial and error to find the right medications and dosage.And then some of us do have 'nurture' issues that compound our anxiety and depression, whether it's abuse, neglect, addiction, or other mental health issues. It is what makes us who we are, not labels, just helps us to know what we need to do to feel better. There are no quick fixes...or magic pills....it's just a long process of finding what works best for you.

[old-soul]

Hey Danny. I get it. Been there and done that and a whole lot of other crap I've had shoveled in my face.

Feel free to bash around and see what I've posted here in the last couple weeks or months and you may find some of it helpful, and you may also quickly see who has been able to relate to or be supportive of me too.

Welcome aboard the ADAA section. I have not needed to go anywhere else on Health Unlocked to find decent support and a place to talk about some of the real nitty-grity of the truth behind anxiety and depression that has reached epidemic proportions world wide.

There are a lot of people here that are not from the United States too, which is cool, but the Anxiety and Depression Association of America put this area up on Health Unlocked, and I'm glad it's here.

So, please, keep your arms and legs inside the car at all times, and please remain seated until the ride has come to a complete stop. lol

Glad you're here. Read lots and give it a bit of time. I'm certain you'll find some stuff that fits your situation and solutions that really do help if you just keep digging for a short while.

Feel free to message me directly (by going to my profile and clicking the "message" button) or anyone else if you'd like, too.

[AZ1970]

Danny-I am glad you are opening up. Why have you lost people close to you? Is it due to your illness? I know therapy can seem daunting. But it really can help. We can be stuck in patterns and thoughts that are not in our best interest. We can't see that though because they are in our heads. A therapist can gently help us challenge that and adjust how we see ourselves, others and the world.

[notsohappybunny]

hey , I don't know you or your story but if you ever want to talk im here to listen and to be there for you.

I know things can be tough and that you are in a sticky situation but things will work out , things heal just give it time

you've got this

I believe in you