Its been a month....

[hayrikki]

Its been a month since I've posted. This last week has been really hard. A year ago today a close close family member was murdered. That on top of all the angst and self hate I feel on a daily basis. The downward spiral continues. I wish I could post something positive, but it is not happening. I can feel the crisis coming closer.

[km147]

That is terrible. I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how you are feeling right now. I hope that you can get through it. I really think you should see someone if you haven't already because it really is a crisis situation that needs to be handled by a professional. if you have already seen someone keep posting if it helps! Everyone here is so supportive of each other.

[hayrikki in reply to km147]

I too feel like I want to disappear. I have family but feel they all just tolerate me. I have been seeing a therapist for a long while. Just can't get things to work. Really wish I could just cease to be.

[km147 in reply to hayrikki]

maybe you need a different therapist? try asking around for recommendations.