Hello I've been absent a lot because all you know my situation.
I feel lost, this time I'm not gonna share my heart issues. What happened with my ex is over and I prefer to close that chapter in my life without talking about him as less as I can. I've become to a woman who hate life and hate people, every person I know has stabbed in the back.
I haven't wanted to share my feelings with anyone, poor Vanessa, I didn't deserve what happened to me.
Now I'm struggling again with my life because it sucks, no one wants to give me an opportunity about job. But well if the person who swore who loved me the most dumped me like trash what can I expected from people who don't know me and don't know I'm hard-working and responsible, they can't see my potential.
The thing is I'm two weeks off because "Semana Santa" and there is no school but I won't get paid because they don't want to pay I'm not working even though they are official holidays. How am I gonna survive 2 weeks without money? Well I have my mom but again the same problems, she doesn't want me to be here anymore and refund my stay. I'm desperate I have no where to go, I have no one.
I've been desperately searching jobs online but if they didn't call me since I came back from Ireland in November, they won't call me during these two free weeks.
I'm so desperate and I've been crying since I wake up. My economic situation is so bad right now and no one wants to help me. I've texted my cousin asking her if there are more jobs where she lives( in the border with America)
I'm at this point of my life where I have hit the bottom. I left everything for someone who didn't worth it and then he left me without job, money, home, hope, plans and love.
I don't know where to go, I wish I could kill myself but I'm very coward for that.
What can I do? I've been surviving with $300 (16 dollars) at week because I earn $600 (32 dollars) at week but I give my mom the half cos as I said she doesn't want me here.
I don't know what else to do with my life. Not even my parents wanna help me. I'm so stupid, and me thinking someone else could help me(my ex) not even my family do it!!!
I'm lost and alone in this world, I'd like to take a plane and go so far away