Not Good Enough?!?

[lmf107]

The past two weeks have been extremely hectic and I haven't had much time to get on here write a post, read others' posts, and respond to others which has been my intention since I joined this.

I am genuinely a very good-hearted person who is extremely caring and loving. However I do have my days as does anyone when they aren't in the mood.

There are times I feel though as if anything I say or do isn't ever good enough for anybody. I was just in a big funk the last two weeks because I was swamped with life being thrown at me in all different directions. At times it feels (maybe more often than not) that nothing I say or do, don't say or don't do isn't ever good enough. I'm the type of person who doesn't like confrontation and doesn't stand up for myself; YET when I do people get bent out of shape and I am complete b*tch; they even sometimes get defensive and go all "crazy" on me as if I did something so horrible. So you tell me to stick up for myself and when I do you don't like it. I just don't get it and it makes me feel like a horrible person.

Also, people say I have a tone/attitude. I am trying to be more conscientious of this since there have been a few who told me I do, but it is definitely difficult for me as I don't realize it. My dad does it to me a lot especially when I stick up for myself. My dad and I are extremely close (two peas in a pod) so when he gets angry I just go the other way because he is cranky and I don't want to deal with his attitude, but he never admits when he is in the wrong when there were times he definitely was. (So he can have an attitude and be cranky, but I can't; kind of hypocritical; and this goes for other people as well not just him). I didn't have attitude when I said what I did (it was more joking around like we always do), but he took it that way and went off. Sometimes I can't find that happy medium. I want to be a strong woman, yet I feel inferior and intimidated by others. So obviously I get in my head and over-analyze then think I am the worst person ever.

Again, I don't feel I'm good enough in any way shape or form: anything I say or do and don't say or don't do is always wrong. ::sigh:: I've gotten over this as I had time to get over it, but just wanted to share although it is bringing up feelings right now since I am reopening the wound (which would've happened again eventually).

Thanks for listening/reading.

[Marato]

You are great enough

Situations like this are common

But you need to overcome them

You are not alone

You can still try your best and work on yourself if you are hurting

[rizzy79]

I've never related to anything more in my life. I never feel good enough. I never feel enough. Just always too much or not enough. I seriously hate my life. No one accepts me. But at least I'm not alone here. And neither are you. I hope you stick around more. I'm going to try too.

[ComingUpRoses]

Man, I have no idea how many times I've said to myself 'it wasn't enough/I'm not good enough.' It's soo rough. I had some things happen this past week that are making me feel ready to do things for me. Not family, not boyfriend, ME. If I can't be good enough for everyone else, then damnit I'll be good enough for me. I just hope I can keep this motivation going no matter what.

But I get you. I got used to not speaking up cause someone either talked over me, interrupted me, or genuinely just didn't even listen. You stand up for yourself, others get miffed. If you're like me, you care too much what others think and feel. So much so to the detriment of yourself.

Be the best you you can be each day, and that is all that matters.

[lmf107 in reply to ComingUpRoses]

Thanks so much. I appreciate your response and suggestions!! I will definitely try to be the best I can be each and every day!!