I'm new on here. I'm 37 year old mother to a 3 year old boy. I suffer from GAD and depression that stems from complex trauma disorder. I'm on a lot of medications prescribed to me by my psychiatrist. The problem I have is that my health insurance deductible is very high and I can no longer afford my counseling sessions. I have been without my counselor since April and I think I am a lot worse because of it. I don't know where to turn. I make too much money to qualify for any kind of financial assistance. I just don't know what to do. The thing is I am generally a happy person, but I have been wired to expect bad things to happen when you are too happy. That was instilled into me as a young girl. I'm also not sure if any of the medications I am on is causing the anxiety. I really have a great life so I feel so guilty that I have so many mental health issues. I know I need to practice compassion for myself, but I'm starting to feel frustrated that I can't seem to control it. I'm scared for myself.