New here. Looking for depression and anxiety support.

[Zebrakitty]

I am a nurse and starting traveling because I thought it would help me avoid burnout. If I’m unhappy at one job, I know I’ll be moving on in a couple months so it’s all good. So I thought. Turns out, I just have something else to be miserable about no where I’m at. I have such a love/ hate relationship with nursing. I could go on and on about that. I’m really here because I struggle with severe depression and anxiety. I don’t know what I’m doing anymore. I’ve lost sight of my why, and I don’t know how to find it again. I used to call myself an artist, but I have not felt inspired to create anything in a long time. I am renting a house with my 20 year old son away from my husband who I really don’t think I want to be with anymore. I’m just not okay. Anyone who knows me would never know because I am always my helpful, silly, kind self. I laugh a lot. I like to have fun. Beneath all that, I feel dead inside. My son has mental health issues too. His dad committed suicide 8 years ago. I don’t know how u can help him when I can’t help myself. I work overnight shifts and don’t even know what day of the week it is half the time. I feel nothing and everything. I just want to go home. Wherever that is.

[Windsorgardener5087]

Hi & welcome to your forum. Unfortunately we take our mental health with us wherever we are. If you are working, you might see if the organisation has an Employee Assistance Program that you might be able to tap into for some support for both yourself and your son. It's free and confidential assistance.

Our forum members are from all over the world so night 🌙 shift means we are either pulling an all nighter ourself or it's day time.

[Dolphin14]

Zebrakitty

Welcome to the community

Things sound very stressful for you right now. This is a wonderful community of support.

My first question would be are you and your son in therapy?

I hope you can find time for self care with your busy work schedule. It's so important to take good care of yourself.

🐬

[Zebrakitty in reply to Dolphin14]

I am actively looking for a therapist for both of us. I’ve had trouble finding a good match on the past.

[Pel3749]

Hi I am also a nurse and it can be a love,hate career. Is there a chance to work day shift instead of nights? The world does not revolve around night workers. Maybe a change would help with your anxiety, depression.

[Zebrakitty in reply to Pel3749]

It’s hard to find day shift travel contracts, but I’m trying.