There are just some things I cannot speak of. Not even here. Not even with a therapist. Do you guys have one of those, anyone?
And I don’t know what comes next to do with that but I am going to trust it will be worked out. I just know it’s not good to bottle it up but it’s scary to speak of so maybe it’s not time yet.
There are things that are embarrassing there are some mistakes made that I sometimes am feeling I should have died than to have lived through and there are feelings now that seem just so wrong.
I’ve been feeling paranoid in ways. I feel like I’m being watched all the time and critiqued and as I meet people I’m imagining all the horrible things they must think of me. Ha I know lol I’m not that important am I ? 😂
But anyway at least I’m getting this much out. Thanks for listening.