Hi.. I am 26 old female, from childhood my mom always use to scolds me whatever happens in the home is all because of me, and she scolds whole day. Previously I used to cry alone while sleeping, then I made my studies as a reason to stay away from home, joined hostel and went to higher studies but still, I couldn't control overthinking about 'whatever happens is all because of me'. Then I started controlling myself and stayed happy for few years.
I liked a person as he understands me and helped me, but he was not good, he lied to me everything instead of his name when I came to know all his lies I fell down again, it was worse than before.
Now I am staying with my family, my mother still not changed. My situation is worse, whenever she scolds me I couldn't control myself, I feel like my head is blasting and I throw the things so that she can shut her mouth.
I am worried because I am unable to control myself. Please help me to come out of my anxiety. Thanks in advance.