Like my profile says. I'm broken. All ways. I just don't feel like going on. My back is broken, my soul (if it's still there) is broken, my emotions are broken.
What brought this on you ask? Why now? Why this time?
My girlfriend got mad at me because I bought myself a camera that I wanted for a long time.
Thats it. That's all I did. I buy her whatever she wants or asks for. But I bought myself something and she gets pissy with me and stops talking to me.
I'm so tired.
Hello. You said in your bio "I'm old. I'm broken. Physically, mentally, emotionally. I just want to be normal again" I am so sorry to hear that you are suffering. I am glad you are here reaching out. You are not alone. I have depression and anxiety and this site is helping me so much. I have been here 2 weeks now. I hope you are able to enjoy the camera that you bought. I am glad that you bought something for yourself. You deserve it. I just wanted to welcome you here.
I've said it once....I'll say it again.....it is quite ok to put yourself not only on your priority list....but at the top of it...You deserve to have a happy spot in your world. I will say that I felt what you did absolutely was ok and you did nothing wrong. Enjoy your camera.....enjoy getting out and taking pictures with it....I am going to purchase a guitar on my weekend coming up. i've always wanted to learn and with as much overtime as I've been working I deserve it.
Guitars are great. Good luck learning.
I need more outlets to express myself.....or as an 'art therapy' class has the motto to 'find my calm' i do pour painting....and have always wanted to learn how to play the guitar....hoping that i have enough patience
I love to paint as well, but I've never heard of pour painting. Can you tell me about it?
best way to tell you about it is to tell you to google it
we are all here for you. We all have our worries I’ve recently broke up with my girlfriend and I’m really struggling. You need to treat yourself at times so enjoy your camera and take some great pics. Be strong my friend
Sorry for what you are going through! Sounds like to me you did nothing wrong.
Everyone deserves a treat now and then, and it’s good to ask for help! I can relate to some of the things you are going through and I know I need all the help I can get. So, enjoy your camera, test out the features and how to do things, maybe night photos, freeze action, play with it!!
Continue to ask for help, everyone needs help!!
Don’t give up! I know life isn’t easy or fair, but people care for you and life is worth living!
Do something you enjoy, exercise and eat healthy. Help other people in need.
Pray to Heavenly Father! He loves you and wants to hear from you, and he will always listen.
Thank you for the kind words. I try to exercise but I have a broken back so I can only do so much.
As most have said, you need to be in charge of your health as top priority. I'm sorry your gf seems to be annoyed that you bought something for you. Especially if you are doing some spoiling of her on your end. The camera is something that will actually help you and maybe she can't see that on her side. I always like to try to give people second chances. If this were me and my husband yelled for buying myself something.....especially to help me during trying times....I would ask to sit down and talk about it with him calmly. I can't usually do it in the moment, but do wait to find the time to resolve. If you love her, then I hope she is willing to sit down and learn more about what you need. Relationships are give and take. You need to feel equal. Photography is a wonderful hobby and you can take it in so many directions. Way to do you! Glad to have you on the site!
Thank you for replying to me. She has issues of her own and gets mad at the drop of a hat. But I do care for her so I always try to work it out.
I’m sorry you are hurting. You have to think about yourself sometimes. Go out and take some great pictures!
FoxTrap- it sounds like your gf is completely using & controlling you. I would ditch her, although I know that is very easy for an outsider to say. If your relationship isn't life-giving, then let it go and take w/ you the lessons you learned on what you like & dislike in relationships & move on to find someone who sees you for the amazing soul you are! This too is easier said than done, but we've all been there and staying just for the sake of having a relationship, isn't doing you any good, physically & emotionally.
I will pray for you & here's hoping for a better week!!
She has broken up with me several times, mostly over little things that most people would brush off and not think twice about.
Yikes, that's so unfair and unkind. I'm sorry for what you're going through
I really appreciate that.
My advice, if you're with someone who treats you like that, as hard as it is, you're worth so much more than that.
Also, I know you feel broken right now but us 'broken' people need to realise that we are so much more than the person we are with.
You are an amazing human being and deserve to feel happiness. Be kind to yourself and allow time to heal you!
Best wishes x
Ho ho, FoxTrap, you'd better get out there soon and take some wonderful photographs. This is not your problem; it's your girlfriends. Tell her - without her interrupting - that you bought the camera to satisfy your needs. It's got nothing to do with her. Perhaps it has triggered something in her. It's still her problem, not yours. Perhaps she worries she will be left on her own while you're out and about, but that's something you will have to sort out between you.
You still deserve something that's going to make you feel better and it's not for anyone to criticise your decision to buy a camera, no matter how expensive. Enjoy it and ?? take her out for a meal or something🤨😊😊
So sorry this has happened to you. I suffered the same experience about 10 years ago when I bought myself a new camera. My husband was furious. Same thing that he buys himself whatever he wants. I did not return the camera and I even bought myself a new camera bag and additional lenses. I think he didn’t talk to me for a week. He got over it eventually. The thing is, I used the camera all the time! I sold my old cameras before I bought the new one. It was a treat I bought myself.
It’s very hard to be in a relationship and then *not be talking*. I agree with others who say, get out and enjoy that new camera! Don’t let someone else spoil your gift to yourself. We all need to take care of ourselves. Don’t short-change yourself.
What kinds of photos do you like to take?
Be kind to yourself. Your girlfriend will get over this.
I really appreciate the kind words. About 95% of the photos I take are of my son. I bought the camera to be able to record us because we have a YouTube channel.
Oh my! Same with me. I was taking pictures of my son and his school mates at their high school soccer games. He’s 28 now and I still enjoy all the high school photos.
Treasure the time with your son. You are making memories with those photos.
He is the only reason I still exist.
I have no doubt that you and your son love each other.
Try to imagine, when you look back on this camera incident in 5 years if it will matter at all in the scheme of things. I’ll bet it won’t. Please enjoy your new camera!
Thank you
I would remind your GF of all the things you have bought for her, and then ask why it is wrong to buy yourself something?
Perhaps a short sharp shock would be good for her.
I would consider her reaction to be a red flag for your relationship, personally, but you know her better than we do.
Ask yourself, Is it you she wants , or only your money? No easier way to ask this one, but you really aren't happy with the situation, it would seem.
It's not for me to tell you what to do, but take care.
Cheers, Midori
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