What happened to my life?

Hey all,

I've been feeling this way for a really long time now and it's still eating away at me, really deep.

I strongly believe that deep down inside, that my girlfriend of 6 1/2 years has fallen out of love with me and she won't admit it. She's afraid I'd hurt myself physically and worried that if I end my life she'd feel responsible for it.

She & I argue a lot and she's trying really hard to say that it's all just "because I love to fight with her!" (Her words pretty much exactly) when I keep telling her that the reasons for my frustrations are because of her lack of affection towards me. I mean let's be real here, if you've been receiving so much attention, love & affection, sexual intimacy where she's like 'not able to keep her hands off of you' type of love from the woman/man you love and then one day it just suddenly stops and you start to wonder like what happened and somehow question it's absence...she just got defensive acting like she didn't know what I was talking about.

I've noticed a pattern in her that when she gets defensive like she's being pushed into a corner, lashes out at me and starts assuming that I'm accusing her of cheating...

......and you know what?.....with an assumption like that and getting defensive like that all the time...what do you expect a man to think?

So because of my fear of losing her, I'm left with no choice but to give her the benefit of the doubt. I'm always telling her, "We used to be like this and we used to be like that, we've always made an an excuse to have sex....everywhere around the house, like in the morning before getting out of bed to go to work, she enjoyed my hands touching her in places on her body, where sex was also routine everyday when we got home, made dinner, then sex before dinner, watch a movie or tv show, touching each other in between commercials. When we're done watching TV back to touching & feeling each other where it would lead to more sex from the living room to the bedroom before her daughter gets home from work.

And that's when it starts; THE EXCUSES.

Excuses like "my daughters in she room"..Yeah like that's ever stopped us. We're always quiet when her daughters home and then there's days where she's gone a whole week.

5 years later, her daughter turns 30 and moves out.

And still the intimacy level is dropping......

And still suddenly it's my fault.

[lostgirl75]

Women go through spouts of wanting sex all the time to not wanting it at all. Its nothing against their partner and by arguing over it she is more than likely going to cut you off longer. Sometimes people need space so do what she is doing and just enjoy your space. Go out with a friend sometimes space is good. Doing the same thing everyday gets to be a chore and you stop enjoying it. I could be very wrong but that's what I would do. And don't argue it's not worth it all it does is upset both people and make things worse.

[Hidden in reply to lostgirl75]

Thank you.

Now if I could just get myself some friends cause she scared my old friends away or more like she pissed them all off one by one before I even noticed. :/

[lostgirl75 in reply to Hidden]

Do you play sports or start running or going to the gym if you don't already. Its easy to meet people there or if your like me and don't want to put yourself out there go to the library or hike. Just get out of the house.

[Hidden in reply to lostgirl75]

Yeah, since I've moved to Chicago it's really difficult for me or just about everyone to put theirselves out there. These days some people think it's creepy. =\

[lostgirl75]

I can understand that so many people pretend to be something they aren't. It can be hard.

[Hidden]

It is....

:/