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[Kip_Q]

I'm not going to give my name, sorry. But I'm a 21 year old female and you can call me Kip. I have been living with severe depression for the past 9 years. I seem to be developing an anxiety problem to. I can't even go to the store anymore. I have a boyfriend of 2 years as of 4 days ago and I love him but, I keep getting this feeling to just run away. Not for anything hes done but because when he tells me he loves me I feel claustrophobic. I just want someone to talk to. Someone who understands my needing to be alone sometimes and that sometimes I don't want to go out. Someone that knows sometimes you gotta cry, doesn't mean anything even though it makes me feel defective. Everyday I feel myself losing this long battle. I lose more of myself everyday and part of me is scared, the other part just wants to end it and get it over with.

If you read this far,

Thanks

Kip

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Hi Kip nice to meet you. You can choose to give your name or not on this site as it is entirely up to you. One thing I would say is if you are concerned with privacy you are better to lock your post to stop it and the replies appearing in full anywhere on the internet. To do this click on the little downward arrow, click edit, scroll down to the end and change the default of 'everyone' to 'community only'. The click on repost and your post will return edited. If it is locked you will see a faint padlock next to the top of it.

Depression with anxiety is very common and I am wondering if you have been to see a doctor yet and whether you are getting any treatment? This could be meds and/or counselling. If you are already seeing a doctor then you might need a change of meds or something?

The thing is remember is you are not defective in any way at all. It is not your fault and it often strikes at random. You have come to the right place as we all suffer from either anxiety and/or depression on here. It can be difficult to be in a relationship with these issues and even more difficult for a partner sometimes. Is your partner supportive?

I am sure others will be in soon to emphasise with you and offer help and support.