Anxiety over pet getting hurt

[Pudding215]

Hi~ This is my first post so I apologize if I'm not doing this right. I'm not very good with my words since I'm currently experiencing this so things might be all around the place.

I have a lot of anxiety over my pet dog getting hurt and I'm not sure if I can handle it all mentally. My dog gets hurt every few months due to neck problems from him being overweight and I think he might be hurt right now, but I'm not completely sure yet. I know what to do when it happens and I know I should be a support to him, but I can't help but get really anxious and depressed over it. My heart just sinks and I start crying, shaking, and I can't breathe properly. It really hurts me to see him hurt, but I don't know how much more I can take. I really really love my dog and I love being with him, but a part of me wants to give him up so he can have a better home since I can't really take care of him all that well because I don't have the finances for him and I'm always worrying about the vet bills since I'm also currently out of a job and I just don't feel like I'm a good owner and I honestly don't know how much more I can handle mentally. I also feel guilty having my mom and grandma help pay the bills since they also aren't well off and they have my sibling to worry about too.

My mom also has 2 dogs to worry about.(I live with my grandma)

I just feel really guilty about saying all of this, but I really have no one to talk to about this and I have no clue what to. I'm scared whenever he gets hurt

and if its to the point where we have to take him the vet, I always worry "how much the bill is going to be?", "will we have enough money for it?", "what if they have to take take more tests or an x-ray?", "what if he has to have surgery, how will we afford that?", and other things like that. I'm just so lost about everything. Every time he yelps in pain, it just breaks my heart since there's nothing I can really do for him all except give him his pain pills and hope it helps him and doesn't get any worse.

It also terrifies me thinking about him getting hurt while I'm away whenever I get a job because my grandma won't know what to do and I don't want him to be in pain all day till I get home.

I forgot to include this earlier, but when he does get hurt and the pain pills kick in and things are bit calmer, I just can't bring myself to anything at all. I can't even eat or sleep properly because I am so worried and stressed out over him being hurt and me not being able to do anything.

I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety back when I was 15 years old, I'm currently 21. I was put on anti depressants and went to therapy for a little bit.

I was wondering if anyone else has experienced something similar or has any advice of what I should do or better ways I can cope with this because I'm so lost.

I'm so sorry if this was all over the place, I tried to make it as organized as possible.

[Hidden]

You have reached the right person, but you may not have seen my post about the death of my 13 year old service dog Scooter....if you look up my moniker you'll see my posts about that.

I can't talk very much right now. The dog comes first as he has no control over things, You do. You do the best at the moment for your dog. He is always going to be a better dog and any of us are people. lol

You decide what is the best thing for your dog and then talk to the vet. Few dogs get over weight unless there is some special medical p[roblem, or if they are not getting enough exercise and too much f the wrong type of food.

If you think your dog is better in someone else's life, talk to your vet to see if she/he knows a good home. And post messages on safe email lines, and do whatever you can not to take your dog to the humane society or pound.

You love this dog, and that love will give you the will power and persistence and creativity to either give him a more proper home,or you will figure out how to help your precious dog loose the weight and stay with you.

Bless you for caring so much and I hope this is of some help.

[Pudding215 in reply to Hidden]

Hi! Thank you so much for replying to me! This helped me a lot! Thank you so much!! I will be talking with the vet next week since we have to go for a check up, so I will ask a lot of questions then. But I will always re-read your message every time I start thinking that way again! I can't thank you enough! It really helped a lot!

And I'm so sorry about your loss! I will be reading you post about Scooter now!

[Hidden in reply to Pudding215]

Thank you for the caring and concern for your dog. It's going to take a long time to get through my grieving about my dog Scooter. I hope you have a long and healthy future with yours.