I found this group yesterday and have already been posting to some. I have OCD and depression. Go to both a psychiatrist and a therapist. I am on meds and they do seem to help.
Through therapy I have realized just how pessimistic and negative I have been my entire life. I never even knew my thinking could be wrong or even questioned the thoughts in my head. For 40 years I have allowed my fears and emotions to run my life with no thought of this being wrong. So now for the first time I am trying to take control of the thoughts I have and avoid the compulsions that once comforted me and reassured me and made me feel safe.
This whole thing is so completely hard, Frustrating, and discouraging. I have the hardest time getting out of bed. I feel like a failure most of the time. I feel like I need to be perfect and no matter how good I do I could have always done better. And that sometimes life is so hard what's the point of going on.
Yes... these are my thought and my feelings. But I have a bit of hope they are not true and in time I will get better and stronger. I am not there yet but I am so encouraged to read other's posts and know I am not alone and there are others that feel the same as I do. I hope God blesses everyone who finds this site and helps them to persevere and find the help they are looking for.