Hi I am 37 years old and in the last month I have had a spike in my anxiety and several panic attacks. I lost my grandfather at the beginning of may a week late I lost my mom and then 2 weeks after that I lost my mother in law. I dont do well with death and I have so many emotions. Mainly with losing my mom I have anger, guilt, great sadness, fear of dying myself. I have started seeing a therapist, My dr has put me back on zoloft which i would love for it to kick in anytime soon. He also upped my ativan to 1 mg which I am so afraid of getting addicted too. But I only try and do 1 a day and I am hoping I have been on my zoloft this is going on week 3 so I am hoping I can start cutting down my ativan to .5 and the to .25 this week and next week. But one of my friends suggested I join a chat site and see if that would help.