I wanted to start off by apologizing that I haven't been on here much lately to encourage others. Quite selfish of me, but I've been sleeping and working... will be on soon to give some encouragement.
But for now, my health anxiety is killing me. It's a demon.
For example today, I've had a varicose vein that has popped. Very tiny. Of course I googled to see if they were fatal and see a clot could form in your leg ..... great. Now I'm going to die of that. My left side feels less sensitive to touch than my other. Am I having a stroke? My head has a weird buzzing sensation that comes and goes.. do I have brain cancer? My eyes are really bad with floaters that wont go away, do I have a tumor on my brain? The list goes on and I live EVERY day in fear that I'll die a new death. I dont believe in myself because when my gallbladder went out a couple years ago, I told myself nothing was wrong until I ended up in the er. Now I feel like I cant trust myself and need to be checked every other day with blood work or scans. Help me dear God. Please help..
Can anyone help with coping skills?
I also included a pic of my little burst. Maybe someone with varicose veins can give me some info? Greatly appreciated... also it does look a little worse because my sock has been sitting on it.
Oh and P PS lol....tomorrow my little family and I are going to Laguna beach. Cant help but overthink I'll die of flesh eating bacteria. Living the life over here.