Ashamed

[Brianne87]

I have severe anxiety ocd and germaphobia. I am a nurse and really ashamed of myself because I'm scared of sick people. I have recently thought about ending my life. I feel like 2 different people.

[SteelerLuvr]

Please don't end your life. I work in healthcare too--I am a speech pathologist in a SNF. I attempted suicide in 2013, and was an inpatient in a psyche hospital for 3 days (voluntary). What do you mean when you say you feel like two different people? Are you getting any treatment or taking any mess for your issues? Please reach out if you need to talk...just don't end it all. People need you.

[BonnieSue]

Are you afraid of sick people because of their germs? But really you want to take care of them because you're a nurse? So you have 2 different feelings about them? What do you mean about being 2 different people? One who's thinking about taking your life and one who isn't? Please talk to me or someone else. You are worth the trouble. I don't mind at all.

[Kobojunkie]

A Germophobe who is also a Nurse? Are those the two you are referring to?

Please know this. The feeling of shame you feel is all about you and no one else. you didn't choose to make yourself the way you are. So you need to please work on accepting yourself as you are, and then working on fixing what you can, and learn to see the good in what you cannot.