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I am recovering from OCD. Lately it's been coming back. I have been cutting but I'm trying to stop. I cry so much I just want to be dead. I am also in the closet about being lesbian. My crush causes a lot of stress honestly.

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irishmermaid

You are loved and wanted. I know mental illness is terrible and hard, but you can't just pass that pain on. Everyone here will help you bear it, but it needs to be something you work through. I'm sorry about your crush. It might be better to just come out, or at least at school. Kids are more accepting of that than adults. Good luck! You are loves

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Cruncher

please do not do something regrettable :( It just passes on your troubles to the people you love, it does not solve anything. The problems don't go away, just get transferred to other people. It may seem easy, but in reality you leave behind a trail of tears, guilt, and emotional and psychological problems to those around you. Plus, there is so much to live for. and either way we all take a nice long dirt nap in the end. Why rush to that dirt nap? Why not stop and smell the roses along the way?

Cutting gives temporary relief but not the long term relief that you NEED. If you can, speak to a therapist immediately.

I have OCD, anxiety, with a sprinkle of depression too and it is terrible some days. But the best thing to do is find coping methods. You have to find what works for you. I see many great suggestions on this site that have already helped me. For example, I am super anxious right now and I'm on here helping people, which helps my anxiety.

I am not well equipped to help you with the lesbian aspect, but I think that either way one day you will be out of the closet and happy.

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Kobojunkie

I know some OCD sufferers who are doing really well in their lives. They don't worry about their symptoms and don't let it control them because they have gotten themselves on treatment plans that helps them manage their condition while they live their lives.

I am not sure why you on the other hand have not made a similar decision in your case? Why choose to suffer needlessly when you could live your life not ruled by your symptoms and have a meaningful one at that? Please find yourself a psychiatrist who will work with you in getting the best treatment plan available for your condition. Please ensure to see your psychiatrist regularly as that is a condition for avoiding a relapse. In addition, engage in some self-therapy as no matter what an external therapist tells you to make you feel ok, the only person who can really make real changes happen in your life is you and only you.

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Ebbyblossom

Hi honey; I want to let you know that you are very much appreciated by many people in your life. I too have struggled with self-harm in the past and have really been trying my hardest to put all of that behind me. I know that it's hard and it seems like there's nothing else to do, but I think the fact that we're both on here says that we want help, and I think we could help each other a lot. I also have a bunch of friends who have come out as gay or lesbian, and so I know a little bit about how hard that can be to come to terms with. But the important thing is that you have to embrace who you are and learn to accept yourself. Easier said than done, I know, but there is hope. You are a wonderful person who just needs to work out how to find the light parts inside of you and let them shine. :)

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