I am mother of a 20 years old son, after my divorse 10 years ago my son went through a very difficult time. His older brother moved in with me and he was left to live with his abusive father during school and then finally after going to court for so long he ended up living after school & weekend with us . His father was extremely abusive to him mentally and physically . He lost so much weight from130 pounds to 90. Both kids were seeing Therepest during that time . When he turned 18 he was half way through high school he moved to my house & went through a very deep depression. He did not leave his room for 6 months . Since then he has been hospitalized dozens of times for attempting sudecid, he has lots of anxiety, body dysmorphia , depression . For about 6 months he connected with some friends I was so happy he was starting to socialize but he got into all kinds of drugs. After an accident he stoped all the drugs & the wrong friends . He is now back to the same place , he is in bed & has no energy to do anything . He finished high school & he wants to go to college . But he has no energy. He is under care of a psychiatrist . He is given meds to wake up aderall meds for his anxiety, Xanax meds for his OCD . Trzedone clonepan, methophaladne,to name a few, he also has had zisures about 5 times . One of the medications I think it was aderal made him extremely paranoids. He never had that in the past . Now he is afraid of people, computers& anything electrical.he is super smart computer programmer. I have spend my life savings on him & I don't care about that except he keeps telling me he is never going to get better and he describe himself as vegetable . He is a very smart kid & loving . He senses are very strong so he feels other people's sadness . He is always giving things away or doing things for others . He started giving all of his belonging to others that he thought need it more than he does . I would give my life to get him better. He is very smart and reads about different meds& talks to his doctor about trying something different . His doctor tells him I am the doctor & I will tell u what to take. I am lost . I know he is exhausted and he feels my sadness . He tells me he is just tired of all this& I know in my heart he can get better. Sometimes He tells me I take meds for everything and my body is forgetting g how to produce happiness naturally. By the way his father stoped talking to him when my son moved in With me. All he wants is to make him proud . I wish I knew where to take him so he can get the right meds & therepy & his meds could be monitored and he tells me he needs cognitive therapy. . Can any one help me please. I am a single mom. My 2 boys are my life. I am afraid he is melting away . I can't loose him. I can not remember the last time I slept all night. I listen to him breath . He has lost more weight. Where can I take him. I work during the day . He is all I think about all the time. Can anyone help me please? His dream is to become an international detective & fight for his country . I will take him anywhere . I just don't know enough about what is available. Time is running out . Please I need direction & hope. I know I write too much Thank you !!!