Sorry to be such a downer, but posting here is so helpful, so I decided to ramble to anyone who wishes to read. I have been having a terrible run of it, and feel like I am trapped, just STUCK in this life of hell. I do not know how to pull myself out of this one. My finances are a mess, I am in a major rut. I have family court on Tuesday and DO NOT want to go and hear how terrible I am. Mental illness is worse than cancer in my opinion. There is no clear cut treatment plan, it is all trial and error. So, like I said, I just wanted to ramble hoping that getting this off my chest will help somehow. Thanks for reading this.