Just another day

[Crazycatladies]

Today started out just like all the others. Wishing I could stay asleep to avoid life. Sitting in bed feeling the anxiety build. Making it to my home office, but not able to dress, shower or even brush my hair. Sitting in front of my computer knowing I have to focus and get work done because I can't afford to pursue disability, but struggling to make my brain work. Then the feelings of despair and loneliness kick in. My wife is incredibly supportive, but I try not to text her all the time with my crap because she deserves better. I don't really have anyone else. I don't want my adult kids to know how bad I am. Mentally and physically. I'm so damn tired of being sick. Going on ten years now, and my life consists of working in my home office and going back to bed. That's it. I just want to feel better.

[Kat63]

Sometimes I wish I could be asleep all the time, too.

Please try to see a doctor and/or a therapist. If you have trouble getting out of bed, dressing, showering, etc., medication and talk therapy (together) can help.

In the meantime, maybe just do one small task at a time. Break the tasks you need to do down into smaller parts, and just do one small step at a time. That seems to help me.

[Crazycatladies in reply to Kat63]

Thank you so much for your response. My doctor has been trying to find a med that works, but it seems like we've tried all of them. I guess a psychiatrist is the next step. I just joined here, and it really helps just to not feel so alone in the world.

[UFC80 in reply to Crazycatladies]

That's good your seeking help. Yes, get a psychiatrist to prescribe meds. They know more and it's their specialty. Plus, they let you talk more with them.

[UFC80]

It's great you joined the community! We all have this terrible disease and only want to better, help eachother here. Welcome 😊

[Crazycatladies in reply to UFC80]

Thank you! It has already helped just having these responses.