trying to understand anxiety and depression

So true. You describe it exactly. Also there's the feeling that you don't want to be dragged under so you fight that. You really fight until you turn the direction around and keep taking the meds that work for you and as you feel better you get re-engaged in life and bit by bit you get your life back.

If your meds aren't right or make you sleep too much you tell your doctor and get them adjusted until you sleep just enough and no more. You keep getting the meds adjusted just right and you get your life back on track and you start to feel like it's better than the last bunch of weeks have been. You realize life isn't bad at all...you feel pretty good in fact! Wow, you're feeling even better than before! Things are looking really good these days!

What was I worried about so much? I don't know why I was so concerned, everything's working out just fine! And so it goes...

If you want to know why you think and feel the way you do, read Self Help For Your Nerves by Dr Claire Weekes. When you understand why, you take your first steps to recovery because it removes alot of the fear and uncertainty which drives anxiety. Depression is just a by-product of anxiety because you have exhausted yourself mentally by continually fighting the thoughts and feelings.

More importantly, Dr Claire Weekes will show you how to recover naturally by doing absolutely nothing about the thoughts and feelings which are causing you so much anguish and pain. By leaving them alone, not fighting, not avoiding, offering zero resistance and just letting go, you give your mind and body the space it needs to recover from the constant worrying and fearing the symptoms which has battered your nerves, causing anxiety.

The key to recovery is learning to be ok about not feeling ok, observing all the thoughts and feelings instead of letting yourself get caught up in all of it and trying to figure it all out, trying to rid yourself of anxiety. Trying to rid yourself of anxiety just makes it stick around. Anxiety is a paradox. The more you do to get rid of it, the longer it stays. The less you do to NOT feel anxiety, the more you will recover. It does take time for the mind and body to catch up with your new attitude and for normal feelings to return but it will happen so long as you step out of the way of yourself and let the natural healing process to get on with the job.

Hi, I know what you mean. It's hard to understand what it means at present why your body just wants to shut down and out of realty. I reacted a bit different.. when I was diagnosed with depression, I refused to go to sleep. Not kidding - I was staring at walls for hours. Just not thinking about anything specifically ad stopped talking to anyone at all including my daughter whom I've very close with. I was like that for nearly a year. It was somehow I felt dead inside me. Was difficult to explain to others who didn't experience the same. I had to take multiple sleeping pills and strong ones to actually fall asleep for a few hours only to wake up again. After a lot of therapy and proper meds, thank God I was back to my daily routine again. The road is long but it is a journey and time will definitely show you that you're strong enough to break the cycle. Don't let the negative inner voices win. Ever. Chin up.

Very good description. I'm sorry you're going through this, but it is temporary. You will make it out. No matter how deep you go. I know that feeling so well, and I also know you will come out of it. I fell back in a few weeks ago, so I'm still not out of my funk completely, but support from this site​ and friends and focusing on self love and uplifting thoughts helps. Try not to overwhelm your mind with what you arnt doing, and focus on what you have done and little things you can do. If you fail, try, try again. Keep making small steps. Try gratitude, and writing or thinking about things you are thankful for, or things that you love and fill you with joy and let the feeling in. Try this whenever you feel the pull of darkness. If you fail, try, try again. I am sending positive vibes and love your way. You've got this. You're not lazy. Your body and mind will come around, just keep at it.