Having a rough time...

[OR4377]

As much as I’m aware that I shouldn’t be hard on myself and judge myself I’m frustrated and upset with myself for sitting here crying and full of fear.

Things feel so dark and scary. I just started a new job, I’ve been in training for weeks. I was issued my assigned shift (3rd shift/overnights) today. I’m a single parent with no other adult in the home and depending on people is hard. I don’t have a strong support system and it exacerbates all the ugly feelings that go along with feeling alone and abandoned.

I have few family members I’m close to and I can’t depend on them. I love them but the emotional support is far in between.

I’m scared and feel terribly alone and things feel morbid.i wish things were different and I had solid Faith in something beyond what I can see.

I have about 30 minutes to get myself together and pick up my little one from daycare- I just want to sleep for a bit.

[Joseph43]

Hello.

Things can get really tough sometimes. And lasts for a long time. Try changing the way you react to things that happen around you. Don't be afraid to show that you care!

Feel free to send me private messages if you want to talk.

Take care!

[OR4377 in reply to Joseph43]

Thank you for reaching out. Sometimes I am not able to think things through when I’m triggered.

Some things I can take time and process-some things pounce on me so fast and then I’m a full on hot mess... like now.

I don’t have a problem showing others I care. I don’t always feel cared for. I’m almost certain I’m an Empath. Combine my personal trauma and struggles with it while learning to navigate and use tools in the midst of difficult feelings = just plain hard.

[Freedom57]

Why are you so scared because you started a new job

My therapist tells me the feeling is usually irrational unless your being chased by a wild animal etc

Fear fuels our anxiety

We can’t always believe our thoughts

You might want to try deep breathing

Exercises to help calm down

Take four deep breaths through your nose

Hold & count to seven

Then blow out to the count of eight

Hope you find relief so you can be calmer for yourself & child🌻

[lighttone]

im sorry your having a hard time. I just joined and would like to keep in touch if you need someone to chat with. I know how hard all this crap is....just picture your kid in your mind when your at the end.

[GiGismiles]

I wish you strength and patience. You are your best or worst friend. I made it alone with 3 sons, i worked full time secretary, and cleaned homes and offices early mornings 4am, and weekends. It ain't easy but it's going to work out with or without you, do your best, find a mantra. Mine was "one foot in front of the other" over and over until i stopped for the day. Best wishes. People are hurting everywhere. It's a tough time in America no matter who you are, unless your the corrupt 1% with zero% compassion. Work hard sleep hard.

[sunandbutterfly]

Sorry that things feel so dark and hard at the moment. You will be okay. Have you considered contacting your local church or visiting there? You may be able to make some connections and broaden your support system. Know that you are not alone.

[SuZQ154]

You are brave and reaching out! That is wonderful! We understand and are here for you.

One method I use to deal with my anxiety and fear is HALT! I ask myself, "Are you H-hungry? A-angry? L-lonely? or T-tired?" Then I try to act appropriately...sometimes I eat, sometimes I call a friend or pray, sometimes I go to bed, sometimes I journal and get in touch with my true feelings. I have had success changing old habits of self-loathing into better ones of self-love and love of others by using this. Hope this helps you, too Blessings and hugs to you today.