New, anxious, feeling overwhelmed.

[Draganies]

I'm new here. I have struggled with depression and anxiety for over ten years and it was going well the last couple of years but in the last 9 months or so my anxiety has been getting worse again. I'm managing, mostly. I'm in counseling and on medications and have a couple of really strong support people but sometimes I'm just suddenly overwhelmed and it seems like nothing that usually works to calm the anxiety is enough. Which is what's happening tonight.

I just really wanted to tell someone who knows what it feels like to be so overwhelmed by anxiety that its hard to function. I wanted to feel less alone with these feelings and I've been thinking about looking for a support group. I googled support groups in my area; I didn't expect to find an online group so easily. I usually struggle to make decisions but this was a pretty easy one. I just didn't want to depend on a site like livejournal or something for support (because they've been really hit or miss for me in the past).

I'm glad this site is here and I hope this will work out. Thanks for listening.

[RyRywifey Ambassador]

Hey Draganies, welcome 😊I, and all of us here can relate to how you feel. We all have symptoms just like yours and some of us even more. You found the right place, where you can come to chat and just speak what's on your mind about how you're feeling with no worry of being judged, you have a huge family here that understands and is here for you. We're all here for eachother. This is a great place to get things off of your mind and ease your mind with knowing you're not at all alone. I'm sure you'll be seeing my posts along with the rest of these wonderful people here and you'll start to realize it was a great choice to pick this community. Please feel free to chat anytime and if you're overwhelmed with anxiety, you know you can come straight here and post your thoughts to get them off of your mind and have all of us here to respond and be here for you. Anxiety is a liar and you're going to be just fine, that's one thing I can tell you 😊 Have happy holidays! And looking forward to seeing you around more on here ☺️

[Draganies in reply to RyRywifey]

Hi RyRywifey (is it okay if I call you RyRy?) Thank you for the support and all the smilies

I have an app on my phone called Virtual Hope Box. One of the things it does is allow me to create personalized coping cards for specific feelings/situations/thoughts etc. I am definitely making one that says "Anxiety is a liar". I actually giggled a little at that. I know it's true as I read it, but I find it amusing to phrase it that way. So, thank you for that.

I am writing for NaNoWriMo (national novel writing month) so since I posted the op I have been trying to channel my anxiety into writing for that. I dunno why I'm telling you that. I just feel like sharing I guess. It's helping keep me distracted and your comment is helpful in a more reducing-the-anxiety kind of way. Like it provided a little relief. I really needed to hear that I'm not alone (even though I know I'm not already).

Anywhoseit. Thanks again. Happy holidays!

[RyRywifey Ambassador in reply to Draganies]

Youre more than welcome! And of course you can call me Ryry, everyone does 😊. And I think that's AMAZING, are you writing an actual book?? Im an avid reader and have so much respect for writers and their truth and creativity, so I'm glad you shared that with me, that's awesome! I'm sure you're going to do quite well. It's a great idea to channel the bully (anxiety) into writing, not only will you be distracted, you'll be taking its power away because you won't be giving it any attention. Its like a really bad kid that uses your attention as fuel 🙄. So while writing, next thing you know, you'll be on here updating on how much better you're feeling. I'm looking forward to hearing how your writing project goes, that's really cool 😊. Many blessings with that from me to you! Always here if you need to chat and everything, feel free to to let me know ☺️☀️

[Draganies in reply to RyRywifey]

Oh my goodness! I am writing a science fiction story that has been in my head since I was teen (about 15 years) sooo... it may one day become a book but it depends on my editing skills and whether anyone will ever want to publish it. Here's a link if you want to read a little about it. It's currently called Patu-land because I couldn't come up with a name and I'm dork and I made it up.

nanowrimo.org/participants/...

(but you have to join and sign in to see it unfortunately)

Also, you're right. I feel much better now but it wasn't just the writing. You helped a lot too. :3

You are super awesome!

[RyRywifey Ambassador in reply to Draganies]

I'm going to sign up! I'm a dork too lol dorks are cool af lol but be passionate and confident in your writing! I hope it blows your mind where it goes! You see what happened with Harry Potter 😬You have the same potential. All you have to do is want it and claim it, and it's yours