I'm in my 50s. At the moment the main starting point is hormonal changes - so no real anxiety but just states that my mind interprets as fight or flight. I then find that I have intrusive thoughts about death - eg just put the foot down on the accelerator and ... - which are scarey, so feeling anxious again means an endless flood of intrusive thoughts about death. I also find that I'm more prone to over-react to life's little trials and end up feeling that I just can't cope with even the smallest amount of stress.
I've suffered from anxiety and depression for years - since I was about 10 and had problems knowing how to express the fact that I really did not like my teacher at school (nothing sinister just not being able not to bottle up how I felt about an authority figure that I didn't like). I used to get very wound up by exams and used to find the thought of death and everything coming to an end rather comforting but over the years that just seems to have developed into the vicious circle of anxiety and death thoughts that builds up over a couple of weeks in the month. Sometimes, if there is anxiety over things at work it doesn't entirely go away when the period starts.
The hormonal changes (both ways) cause migraines as well and the GP tried putting me on the pill at one point but it didn't seem to help with those. I have found that running regularly helps with the Migraine but had a fall in early December which resulted in a broken ankle and I still haven't got back to the point where I can run regularly - water retention close to the period seeming to be a big factor in not being able to get the range of movement back into the ankle. Running was also another way of dealing with the anxiety.
Feeling quite calm at the moment after spending 2.5 days laid up in bed with a migraine.
I have been treated on and off by GP for anxiety/depression over the years but never really felt listened to - I do get some feelings of low self esteem when I am depressed (because I'm obviously not coping the way 'normal' people do) but wouldn't say I was someone who actually suffers from low self esteem outside these periods.
I've been a vegetarian for 30 years, mainly because I find meat really difficult to digest. When I had the ankle pinned at Christmas they said that my bloods showed low levels of B12 so I have been on shots. When I looked up the symptoms of B12 deficiency I couldn't really relate to most of them - though my bowel movements do tend to vary between very enthusiastic and rather reluctant, I have been finding myself getting very tired over the last year or so and I do suffer from depression. I am hoping that my GP will redo the B12 test once the shots are over just incase that is a factor but at the moment I think I really need some thoughts on how to train myself away from getting so fixated on death when I get anxious.