I'm wondering of other people find depression and anxiety worse in the mornings? When I get up, I usually feel pretty bad - I often end up just stuck in front of the TV or sitting in silence for a couple of hours, until I can pull myself together enough to start the day. And that's on a good day. When it's really bad, I'll lie awake in bed thinking about engineering my own death in gruesome and precise detail, playing it over and over again in my mind, then when I get up I feel like I've been run over and literally can't walk in a straight line! But as the day progresses I always feel better, and come the evening I'm always feeling OK. All the problems are still there, the grief, guilt, fear about the future etc. but they just don't seem so important, and I'm always convinced tomorrow will be fine and I'll be back to normal again. Fat chance. It's like 'Groundhog Day', same thing all over again.
I can't think why this happens, I don't drink or do drugs, and always go to bed at a reasonable hour and get up at the same time each morning. Does anyone else go through this, and if so how do you cope - it's starting to wear me down. I can't say I fancy going through 20 or 30 years of this hell.