Hey Y'all, I'm 16. I've for almost a year had the worst Anxiety and Depression, Suicide has been a recurring thought but never actually considered, Contemplated or attempted. I can be so down, Low, Don't go outside unless I have to (Example, School or Stuff Like That) I find myself wrecking my friendships, at times I have a lift in mood, I become excited and overly enthused for no reason (Lasts for around an hour or something but thinking of it, it's not even pleasant just well unbearable) My Pupils dilate a lot but I've had times of feeling Miserable but Hyper at the same time, Anxious to heck but running around talking and laughing etc etc. (The Past Week Or So) Have felt really warm, great, Enthused, Energised, Healthy, and Outgoing like I need to start going out and like start making plans to decorate my room and just small things like that but usually at night I'm back to that horrible miserable self, I don't feel ashamed or anything like that I just, Find myself making a decision on anything then omitting it as I feel that I hate it, Like I make a decision and then just look back and be like 'What the hell. That doesn't make sense or that's boring) I had an instance me and a friend fell out and overreacted to the point I was going to move schools, My Mind just can't stick with a defined choice or decision, I just feel so confused and mentally exhausted. (I know I can't be diagnosed or even fully given an opinion, I fully appreciate that But honestly, It's beyond normal 'teenage blues' I would still ask for y'all opinions whether right or not Thank You All.