I recently became really low for a few weeks, whilst me and my boyfriend of 4 years almost split up, a few days after we finally sorted things out, I stupidly tried edibles for the first time and ended up having a really bad experience and a panic attack that lasted hours. I’ve always been a nervous person but ever since that moment I just haven’t felt the same. I became really stuck in my own head and my anxiety was so extreme I was signed off work. I experienced lots of strange thoughts and thoughts of suicide for the first time which I never thought I ever would (and don’t plan to act on)
That was back in May and I’m back at work now and functioning but I still don’t feel right. I feel detached from reality, have no confidence in my future and struggle to be on my own with my thoughts. (I have been to my GP/therapy and was on sertraline for a while but had to stop as it brought on tinnitus) I just don’t know if the whole experience has left me with a generalised anxiety disorder or is it depression as I was extremely low before the drugs. I just wish I had a time machine so that I could go back and make some different decisions!!