Hello, i'm Robyn and I've just turned 16..
before I say anything i'd really appreciate some good advice, and i'm also here for anyone else if they'd like to talk
okay, so pretty much ive been dealing with depression since I was only 11 years old and its only ever gotten worse. I have tried to help myself (I don't talk about it with my friends because im scared they think im pathetic) by writing lists of all the good things in my life, forcing myself to think happy thoughts and meeting up with friends more (I get REALLY anxious when I meet people and get plans, and I find the whole thing uncomfortable), but nothing is working. I had therapy sessions when I was 11, and that's when my school had found out I self harmed. I don't self harm anymore but I feel my depression is worse because I feel deeply sad all the time..like, everything could be going fine and I still feel really low. I have always struggled with anxiety and low confidence/self esteem, but I feel I've come out my shell a bit and I still feel the same. My parents just don't understand, ive literally come out with the sentence "I'd like to get help from the doctor, I think Im depressed" and my mum has never been able to deal with it, and shes a nurse. I get really anxious all the time, like when I have to meet up with people, and when the house phone rings (I have a weird phobia of phones) and Its a huge struggle getting through most days. Recently I have been forcing myself to do things out my comfort zone, and ive hated it. I just want to stay in my bed and not do anything all day..i really don't feel it's "just hormones" and I would really appreciate some help..thank you in advance!