Found this site this morning and could not believe how many of us are out there with the same problem or issues, or whatever the medical profession calls it these days.
Depression is caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain, rather than circumstances we often believe is the case. I had cancer at age 28 which meant a hysterectomy came about and 2 weeks later, depression set in. That was 22 years ago.
At that time I was put onto Amitriptyline and lived a very successful and normal, happy life. 2 years ago I developed bad side effects to the meds and my life completely changed for the worse.
I'm a professional, I earn a very good income, have my own home, great friends, therefore, according to the medical profession, no reason to be depressed. I've been prescribed about 4 different kinds of anti-depressants, to find something that works, none of which has been successful.
For the last 6 months, I've been going to work at 6am, coming home at 4 and getting straight into bed, ignoring the world around me. A month ago, my contract ended, so I completely withdrew from life itself.
I can't seem to get out of bed, not that I'm sleeping, it simply feels like a safe little haven for me. I've lost 69 pounds, I shop online to avoid people and can't be bothered to answer the door when friends come calling.
The reason I've opened up this much is because I know I can't stay on my current meds because its the side affects that has me in this state. I'm trying to find out if anyone on here has come off the meds completely and is coping better with the situation?
Its seriously difficult to get an appointment to see a doctor and I don't really believe they're sufficiently up to speed on depression anyway. Either that or their instructions are to simply try every different kind of medication until the right one comes along.
Would appreciate your feedback.