Hi, I'm new,
Tonight I finally got the courage to write this. So here goes, for many years I have struggled with how I have felt, spending large periods of time feeling out of place and worthless. I have suffered from depression for several years on and off. However now i have noticed that when I am 'OK ' I'm apparently not.
A friend has pointed out I talk non stop during these times, I know myself I get easily annoyed and my opinion seems to be the only one that matters (in my head), I tend to obsess about a new me during these periods sometimes reinventing myself for example the way I dress. I also appear and act overly happy like I just won the lottery. I can't seem to focus on things properly and get distracted. My judgement in people is also different I tend to trust more and over share things I usually would not. I get anxious as well during these periods.
However I have now fallen into a deep hole since my college course ended a month or two ago. I feel like I don't want to be here anymore, I feel worthless and as if I am an outsider in my own family. I have cancelled all my plans with friends and even struggle to txt people back as I just want to stay away from everyone. I cry uncontrollably as if my world has ended, I have a horrible feeling I'm my tummy , I just want all this to go away.
My elder sister whom I have lost contact with several years ago has bipolar disorder and I was wondering if anyone thought what I have described could be the same.
Thanks to anyone who has read this.
Fallen Fairy x
Hi there and welcome, we can't say if you have BIpolar. The best thing to do
Is to go and see your Dr. And take it from there. Tell him everything that
You have written here. Have you done that already?
Let us know how it goes.
Hannah
Hi , thanks for your reply! No I haven't seen go yet as I'm frightened it will stop me going to uni to do nursing, as I need to undergo an occupational health assessment.
GP*