Not sure what to say & bit nervous writing this but come across this site and read some posts and found it helpful but now wondering if I should be as feel as if my problems are not worthy to bother others with.
Without giving my life history I have been having treatment since first going to GP back in 2015. Initially was due to significant weight loss and seen a dietician for almost a yr and was initially told an increase in weight would help (and resolve). It was hard very hard to put on weight but had something to focus on and got there. But mood still not improved, some days or parts of days I feel really good and then other times wonder what the point is.
I have a great family and my young daughter does help me get through the tougher times, it's like being around her I can switch off from everything else around me and the reality of life.
During the last 3 years I've never taken a day off work until 2 weeks ago even though there were some tough days and have never told anyone outside of my wife, 1 close friend & doctors. I tried to hide it embarrassment I guess, feeling of weakness. But few weeks ago I just felt everything was getting on top of me & couldn't cope. Nothing really different and all seem like minor points but just got too much and here I am off work at the moment.
Quite nervous now as going back to see GP this afternoon to see if fit to return to work. Part of me wants to as sign of getting better and think getting back into normal (whatever that is) routine will help but other parts not sure as still feel not motivated to do much, still not sure can cope and worried what to tell people when return. Feel comfortable (think) telling boss but not sure what to tell colleagues as don't feel comfortable. But not sure if this is clouding view? We'll see as talking does help me, writing this has (I think) helped a little.