Hi guys gals, just letting you know that about 5 hours after my last post I ended up on the fast track to A&E!! Thought it was the chemo making me feel rough - but seems my heart rate decided to drop to around 37 beats per minute - and as I pointed out to the paramedics and docs - its not because I am healthy, sprinters and long distance runners get very low resting heartbeats - errrrrgh!! Totally different issue to the lung cancer jobby. Anyway I am now home after 3 days in the old hospital - non the wiser but feeling a little better - beat is up to 48/50 now.
What I am so grateful for is the fact I really didn't have to crawl out for a fag - or even discharge myself to get one (anyone out there guilty of that feeling???) I HAVE DECIDED I WILL BE THE ONE IN 4 SURVIVOR!!! My sense of humour is returning as is my appetite - which is still miniscule as is the window of opportunity to get sommat down my gob before the urge to eat is overtaken by nausea. I think it is around a 10 minute window to eat so - have now got the quickest meal plans ever in place! GREAT NEWS - NO THOUGHT OF A FAG Yo Yo Yo!!!
Soooooo!! if you don't succeed the first time - don't ever quit trying to quit! Apart from my health issue - did you know that ONLY people who have smoked get that COPD - to which oxygen tanks are the last resort - it may not be the big C - but in some ways it must be worse - just being stuck for years in an arm chair with oxygen to help you breath. Don't waste time beating yourself up cos you have had a fag, we are our own worst critics - just get back to it asap. God knows how many times I tried and failed.
I am hoping in the New Year - when all my zapping is done to have a coffee morning for all you folk - I shall do the brews but all you cake makers will have to get in shape because I dust my cooker (but the kettle's always on!!!)
Ps for all those who know that my cat has had to be rehomed cos of the infection risk - he has settled down and is now sleeping all day on the bed and playing out at night. I am in touch on his doings by facebook, his new owner posted his picture from his new home - and for all intents and purposes he looked like he had been slapped with a wet fish (never was beautiful - only to me!!!) lol