Hi everybody. This is my first blog. I would like to start out by saying that finding this website was a God-send. I felt so isolated and after reading some of your blogs, I don't feel so alone. To begin, I was diagnosed about three years ago with RA after suffering for about 2 years with chronic pain in my ankles and wrists and finally deciding to seek out a rheumatologist. The Rheumy diagnosed me with RA and started me on methoxerate and plaquenil. That didn't help. Then my doctor tried me on other meds, half of which I can't even remember anymore. All of which I had some sort of bad reaction. Turned out I'm allergic to NSAIDs. Terrible news as we all know most of the pain meds for RA contain some type of NSAIDs. I decided to take a three month leave from my job in order to find the right meds for me. That three months has now turned into one year because one month into my leave, my hip started hurting to the point I couldn't go up and down stairs. I ended up having arthoscopic surgery to clean out all the inflammation and debris from my hip joint. Then fibromyalgia hit and then my fingers starting getting that old deformed look (nevermind the pain in them). Then restless leg syndrome appeared, which apparently is one of the side effects of fibromyalgia. Then the anxiety and panic attacks set in. Needless to say, my three month leave turned into long term disability. I am now taking weekly Humira shots, which is helping a bit plus Cymbalta and methoxerate. So here I am four years into this nightmare and the reality of probably never going back to work is hitting me hard. I've worked steadily for almost forty years, 25 in the same company. I think the only thing that keeps me going is knowing my daughter is pregnant with my soon to be grandson. I want to be strong enough to hold that baby in my arms. Well, thanks for listening to my story of woe. Sorry it's so long, but once I started typing, all this stuff I've been keeping to myself just spilled out.