why????

[Abratforu]

Everyone who is familiar with me knows somewhat of my past problems... now I have to face a new one my daughter?? is it not enough that you remove my mother from this earth but now you choose to touch my 31 year old daughter with cancer ?

Is there something that I am being punished for? is there something that I need to change? I am fed up with this bull sh*t life... really? and I am suppose to be strong and stay strong? really???????? this whole existence is starting to make me think about what? that life sucks and there is no compassion at all dammit I feel done! :(((((((((((((((

[RoisinO1 Administrator 3 Years Smoke Free]

Aw Annette, life can be so cruel. But you are strong and continuing to grow strong as you need to be for your dear daughter just like you were for your Mam. I hope you are getting lots of support from family and your doctor to help deal with all this trauma and stress. Come here to let off steam any time. 💜

[Hercu Valued Contributor]

Hi Annette ....Yes, it is strange how life can throw curve balls at us...but please remember.. “Tough times never last, but tough people do.”– Robert H Schuller

I had a rumble with life also when my dear wife went for an ECG last Monday and the Specialist immediately send her to hospital for and angiogram and possible stent.

She had a bypass 9 years ago.

Luckily the stent was not neccecary and she was discharged Friday but she is now officially classified class 2 Diabetes.

So, gladly life is almost back to normal and with the nice summer heat touching 40 deg C we are thankfull to be back in Mozambique..!!

I really think you are not punished but tested for strenght...Keep well ..thinking of you and your daughter.

[RoisinO1 Administrator 3 Years Smoke Free in reply to Hercu]

Hey Hercu - sorry to read about Hetta's ill health but glad that is was not worse. Hopefully she makes a full recovery with the Diabetes and even reversed if it is possible. Must have a very scary and worrying ordeal for you both.

Since the passing of my college friend in August, life has really been put into perspective for me and I am taking nothing for granted and trying to live life to the full - can be difficult to maintain this mindset with every day life but I am going to do my best to try

[Hercu Valued Contributor in reply to RoisinO1]

Thank you Roisin...It was scary because we were not prepared to stay 9 days in South Africa..(We planned for 2)

But yes, thankfully no major problems..!!

[Abratforu 1 Year Smoke Free]

Hello, Thank you both... I am okay : ) I mean as okay as anyone can be. I really appreciate your talk Hercu... after reading other people stories helps a lot. I never went back to smoking after all that has happened , I am good I will make it thank you Roisin to your little pick me up words help

[Abratforu 1 Year Smoke Free in reply to Abratforu]

and oh I also apologize for my giving up on life earlier.. I was just really mad and upset and I was thinking to myself why.. I am sure you know what I mean.. there has to be some sort of gold at the end.. and I havn't found it yet but I am sure someday things that have been thrown at me will unfold and I will understand.. I hope

[RoisinO1 Administrator 3 Years Smoke Free in reply to Abratforu]

Hey Abratforu 6 months smoke free today! How is things with you and how is your daughter?