So I bought a pack yesterday and have been chain smoking quite a bit.
Was on my 53rd day of being smoke-free and my boyfriend broke up with me and I just needed to allow myself to collapse and use this as a crutch.
I don't want or intend to get back to smoking regularly, but just feel like I need it for now. I quit also partly because of him. He hates the habit for especially for anyone he's close to, as he wants them to live a long and healthy life. I had my own reasons for quitting, though admittedly they weren't really strong ones. Just kind of "I should do this.. It's time.. I want to not be dependent on something so horrible and unhealthy for me etc." But feel like maybe they weren't really strong ones or I hadn't internalise them properly and really believed them.
Any advice on getting through this would be greatly appreciated. And I'm so glad I found this site all those weeks ago when I first quit, so that I may have the support and resources here to try again.
Will get my order again soon, and quit again. I believe I'll come out stronger the next time around x