6 Years ago virtually to the day I split up from my husband and I suffered very bad depression - 2 years of high dosage prozac with my life spiralling completely out of control -I thought enough of this..get yourself sorted and I did - but I started smoking again after a 14 year quit. Roll forward to this weekend day 13 and 14. I can't describe how I feel - its like I have been transported back 6 years and am just enshrouded by pure misery....I haven't cried so much since the time he walked out of that door. I feel totally despondent to the point today where I was on the verge of telling my partner that I wanted to leave him.....I have trotted off by myself for a walk to try and sort my head out...I just dread that depression coming back.... I keep telling myself that I am happy not smoking and I know that I will do it ...but didn't expect this darkness!