Day 13 - Lucky for some, or not?

13 has a bit of significance to me.

I was born on a Friday the 13th.

I passed my high school exams on a 13th.

I got my current job as IT manager on Jan 13th 2007.

And of course, this quit started on the 13th :D

It's generally very lucky for me. Today is day 13 of my quit - and I'm struggling a bit, if I'm honest.

Last night I dreamt I had 2 puffs and woke up panicking in a cold sweat... took me several minutes to realise it was the middle of the night and there were no fags nearby. A cold moment of realisation that my "demon" is still not asleep.

Also, just before bed last night I had my first temper tantrum :mad: Not nice. Luckily the Mrs took it in her stride.... "About time, I thought you were too cheerful recently" were her exact words.

And I have been, my only change in mood has been for the better so far - but today I am grumpy as hell :(

Damn you number 13!!!!!!!!! :D

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  • Stuart

    no matter how easy some of us find a quit, there are always moments which creep up on us and catch us by surprise.

    It is not the "easy" times we need to worry about, they will take care of themselves, it is the "moments" like you are having today that we need to watch out for. You are going really well with this quit and i feel that even if you get a couple of bad days you will not cave in to these feelings.

    stay strong Stuart

  • Hi Stuarth,

    your doing well mate. i know how your been feeling... been there. what you

    need to watch out for is old nick never sleep, he is just waiting for the right

    time when he know how low you are feeling. then he jump on you with both

    feet,:( don't let him beat you. be ready and strong. when you feel a

    tantrum coming on. go for a walk or read a book. even better come on here

    and talk to someone about how you are feeling mate. there is alway someone

    here ready to help.:D BE STRONG,, BE READY,, BE HAPPY,, BE QUIT,,

    Alan;)

  • Please don't get me wrong - my resolve has not been dampened by this. I have simply accepted it as part of the process.

    However, it is still difficult. I never thought it would be easy and I will get through, have no fear.

    Thanks for the support guys, I do appreciate it - and it really does help :)

  • Hang on in there,

    There are good days and bad days, the longer you do the more good days there are and fewer bad.

    All the best

    Nic

  • One thing I am taking as a big positive is that in the dream, I felt horrible having those 2 puffs. Very sick and very dizzy. When I woke up, I felt ill - and very angry with myself until I realised it was just a dream... and then realised that I still had no desire to smoke.

    So... the dream is a sign that I still have to be very vigilant, but I am winning - and I will carry on winning :D

  • dreams are a b!@tch aren't they??? confuses the hell out of me! The other day i dreampt i was driving down a road near where i live in a tank and stopped at the co-op to buy a vintage musket! then chickened out of going to war because i didn't want to leave my son without a mummy (bizarre! just a subconscious manifestation of your anxieties and fears), stay strong and positive and kick the demon into touch, we are in control no one and nothing else! (not even a tank ;) ):D xx

  • Lets not start trying to anαlyse our dreams, peeps.

    I'm scared about what a it might say about me :eek:

  • Lets not start trying to anαlyse our dreams, peeps.

    I'm scared about what a it might say about me :eek:

    Hey, if my dream is telling me I am doing great - then I'm doing great!!:mad: ;)

    If your dreams are telling you something else..... then feel free to ignore them, I would :D

  • Yeah! we are doing great!!!! and i could drive a tank if i wanted to!!!!! :D

  • dreams are a b!@tch aren't they??? confuses the hell out of me! The other day i dreampt i was driving down a road near where i live in a tank and stopped at the co-op to buy a vintage musket! then chickened out of going to war because i didn't want to leave my son without a mummy (bizarre! just a subconscious manifestation of your anxieties and fears), stay strong and positive and kick the demon into touch, we are in control no one and nothing else! (not even a tank ;) ):D xx

    Hi Helen

    you are doing so well with your quit but PLEASE stop taking the drugs too!!!!:D

    Oh and the CO-OP stopped selling muskets about 2 years ago!!!!

  • If your dreams are telling you something else..... then feel free to ignore them, I would :D

    Generally, my dreams tell me that I fancy Billie Piper:D:D:D

  • if only it were that simple! ;) ok will stop scaring you lot with my weird dreams!!!! re. the muskets.....my co-op must carry very old stock then!!!;)

  • Generally, my dreams tell me that I fancy Billie Piper:D:D:D

    Isn't that strange, mine normally tell me I am irresistable to all women - a bit like the Lynx adverts. :D

  • Isn't that strange, mine normally tell me I am irresistable to all women - a bit like the Lynx adverts. :D

    are you made of chocolate then????? :)

  • are you made of chocolate then????? :)

    Come have a nibble and let me know ;)

  • Come have a nibble and let me know ;)

    Grooming alert!!!!!!!:eek: :D

  • :eek::eek::eek::eek:

  • oopsie.

    I really hope I haven't offended anyone...

    *slinks off to hide in the corner*

  • oopsie.

    I really hope I haven't offended anyone...

    *slinks off to hide in the corner*

    Naaaaa, it's just that I am so easily shocked ! ;)

  • oopsie.

    I really hope I haven't offended anyone...

    *slinks off to hide in the corner*

    Nahh i am just pee'd off cos its usually my Job!!!

  • That's OK then...

    *unslinks and resumes normal service* :D

  • lol!!! not offended ;)

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