New quitter on day 14

Hi everyone! Well I am on day 14 have been using nicotine patches when it felt I needed and have an e cig too for those moments my habit moments creep in.

I have wanted to quit for years, but didn't.

Then in January my mum was diagnosed with lung cancer (heavy smoker) and subsequently died 6 days after her first chemo treatment, 1 week after diagnosis. I was with her when she died as was my dad and sister.

Since January I have had a strange relationship with smoking, hating it but unable to stop properly, this is when I realised I was not really trying and kept beating myself up. From January I stopped morning smoking, and smoking in the day but struggled with smoking in the evening and socially despite everything I saw my mum go through.

I had a lightbulb moment two weeks ago. I am fit and healthy in all aspects other than smoking, I work out, eat well, look after my skin and body all bar smoking which is the worse possible thing you can do to yourself. So what was the point of doing all that and still smoke. I asked my self WHAT AM I DOING! To myself.

So it has taken all my strength and retraining my brain but I haven't had a cig for 14 days, the longest time since I was 16, I'm now 36. It's so so hard and it's just the start of a lifetime commitment.

I intended to wean of nicotine patches and e cig and I know some people say that you are still addicted but for me anything that stops me filling my lungs I will do until I retrain my brain again to stop the nicotine.

I'm really proud of myself it's a big thing. Test is this weekend a club night out on Sat night and a wedding on Sunday. I CAN and WILL do it.

I know I will wobble and I am hoping I can turn here for inspiration and also offer support and inspiration in return.

So hi everyone!

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  • Hi kitty , 14 days free of fags is fantastic,well done! Keep going and show the same strengh over the weekend and your be so pleased come Monday! Hang in there!

  • Thank you! I really want to wake up Monday and say I did it!

  • 14 days!,..well done,..sorry for your loss!...must be hard as!

    im on day 3,...know what youve been through!

  • Thanks for your replies. Everything is very hard right now but i try to get through the day doing something positive!

    My quit is the most positive at the moment and it is hard but some things are harder and I know no matter how must I crave or want a fag I want more to be healthy! If you understand what I mean! Lol. I suppose everyone needs an angle and mental mantra and this is mine!

    Well done to you all too, good to know we are not alone.

    I like the weeble name and trust me I am one, been knocked loads and always get back up! You have to!

  • Hi Kitty

    Sorry for your loss, and congrats on getting to day 14, this place is great for info and alot of really nice, helpful people on here.

  • Hey Kitty, welcome to the forum :)

    You sound so so strong, despite the year you've had, and I admire you for that! Try to take each day as it comes, rather than worrying too much about the lifetime commitment. I don't think I'm alone in saying that some days I was sticking to a minute by minute mantra. But it worked!!

    Good luck, though it doesn't sound like you need it! ;)

  • Hello Kitty,

    Firstly just want to say sorry for your very sad tragic loss.

    You and I sound very alike, like you I am fit and healthy, regularly exercise. Facials etc etc..but you know what I am going to say..all for nothing because the smoking paid to that !

    With me I went through a horrible patch of my face breaking out in spots, my hair being the crappiest ever..but I suppose it was all the years of damage coming out. Now pleased to say much better.

    Also want to tell you how nice it was going to the dentist and having that "clean" it hurt but was sure worth it.

    It's the feeling of being clean that I love the most :)

    Well done on your 2 weeks. Sounds like your mind is in the right gear :)

    xx

  • Hello Kitty,

    Firstly just want to say sorry for your very sad tragic loss.

    You and I sound very alike, like you I am fit and healthy, regularly exercise. Facials etc etc..but you know what I am going to say..all for nothing because the smoking paid to that !

    With me I went through a horrible patch of my face breaking out in spots, my hair being the crappiest ever..but I suppose it was all the years of damage coming out. Now pleased to say much better.

    Also want to tell you how nice it was going to the dentist and having that "clean" it hurt but was sure worth it.

    It's the feeling of being clean that I love the most :)

    Well done on your 2 weeks. Sounds like your mind is in the right gear :)

    xx

    Hi! Thank you for you reply. We do sound alike! I look after myself but did not with the fags and seemed to completely ignore that fact! How odd! It is so nice being clean, smelling clean and smelling the air! I can not smell a fag a mile away!

    Funny you should say about spots, I have always had clear skin I have good skin mainly down to genetics but my goodness these little spots everywhere on my face. Prob also down to a good sauna all the crap is coming out.

    Anything else you experienced that I should be aware of?

  • Hey Kitty, welcome to the forum :)

    You sound so so strong, despite the year you've had, and I admire you for that! Try to take each day as it comes, rather than worrying too much about the lifetime commitment. I don't think I'm alone in saying that some days I was sticking to a minute by minute mantra. But it worked!!

    Good luck, though it doesn't sound like you need it! ;)

    Yes you are right and thanks for the advice, one minute at a time I suppose is more manageable! I sometimes feel strong and sometimes feel a complete mess but I think it comes with the territory of losing someone! Also taking the rough with the smooth, life!

    I went spinning tonight as I do most Thursdays, the difference in my breathing is in unbelievable, makes you realise.....

  • Better Breathing - oh yes ! Unbelievably so especially when swimming - I have just come back from holiday and for first time I did snorkelling ! Loved it ! Also first time I have taken to running again would not even have attempted had I smoked !

    Can't think of anything else..dreaming about smoking seems common.

    Also every now and then I thought I could smell smoke.

    I'm hooked now on humbugs and chocolate NOT 9lb extra good but ill work on that. Grrr.. In the early days I tried to drink lots of water. I don't like sauna but I love steam room. All helps flush toxins out.

    Oh and one more thing .....Strawberries I'm hooked on them have them daily now with blueberries and Greek Yoghurt and seeds and nuts ! So tasty and so good for you !

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