5th day so far so crap

I had to give up smoking on Tuesday 11-1-11 just before I had my 2nd collar bone operation (the 1st time the bone didnt unite, probably due to smoking) so the reason for giving up is medical. Ive been a smoker for 18 years and am now 32.

Im finding it a bl**dy nightmare, I just want to fight / kick / shout at anything that comes my way. The worst thing is that I cant go to the shop and buy a nice (mmmm.) pouch of tabacco with a packet of blue papers with extra slimline filters. :( If I do I risk my bones not healing together.

On top of that Ive always smoked my daily spliff in the evening to keep life, well, semi-interesting. I cant even do that anymore.

I dont like patches or inhalers as they feel like firing blanks on guns, and they also dont satisfy above. Champix makes people depressed.

Ive told myself 6 months no smoking then I can light up again (perfect timing for summer) but s**t man, 6 months is such a long time. Ill go insane before then!

The giving up smoking hurts more than my broken collar bone. No joke.

I miss it though, it me, my personality and everything. And its been put on an excruciatingly painful hold.

Help! life sucks

Nico

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  • Hi Cheesy and welcome to the boards :D

    Sorry to here you having a bit of a fight with this quitting malarky.

    It does get easier, but you do have to have a strong mind :)

    It does seem to me that you have a lot of negativity about you at the moment, is this because you don't really want to give up?

    I only say this because in your post you have said you only want to give up for 6 months and the only reason is medical??

    I'm not going to preach to you about giving up, your an adult of 32 and i am 34 , but i will say if you are sure about this quit, you need to put some type of positivity back into yourself.

    Giving up isn't easy, ( i wish it was i would have quit years ago) but this forum has been a big help to me, so i hope it will be for you too.

    Any questions post them down, some one is around nearly all the time to reply.

    snow xx

  • Woke up with the pounding pain of wanting a cigarette gone! At peace, but for how long?

    6 Months is a timeset only to try and make it easier. When I feel rough ill be telling myself, 6 month ,6 months.

    I hope ill be alright at 6 months to continue being good to myself

  • Hey cheesy, welcome.

    If you do a bit of reading round the subject you'll see most serious quitters taking this thing one day at a time, never mind six months. I know I am - the minute I say forever, or even start talking about a couple of months, I start going rapidly mad.

    At the end of the day we have to face the fact that we are all addicts, and every single recovery programme, whatever substance it's for, teaches that 'I will be sober - today' mantra.

    Your health is already suffering, and I don't need to tell you that as you get older and keep on inhaling the crap, those health problems don't get better, and the risks of much worse problems are increased. So if you can get yourself into a positive mindset about this quit, you'll be doing yourself a huge favour.

    I sound like I'm preaching; I'm really not. I know precisely what hell you're going through, and 25 days into my own quit I miss smoking every day and still have to fight myself not to go back to it. But it does get easier, and more manageable, and reading lots about it is helping me to change my attitude to it, so I have more negative feelings about tobacco.

    About the weed - why not bake some brownies? Or my friend who quit smoking bought one of those vaporiser thingies - so he can inhale the vapours without the smoke. Don't know if it works or not though.

    Good luck. Try and stick with it and read around the subject to help you change your thinking. There is really so much to be positive about if you can get through these first hellish days, and so far you're doing GREAT!!

    Helen

  • I so so love the idea of a vaporizer, thank you very much for shining the light down the end of my very long dark tunnel.

    With regards to the cigarettes, those evil smelly cancerous, ball and chain imprisonment, my nicotine addiction is an illness..... im suffering at the moment, I will get better.

    But now I know I will be able to reward myself when I get through this hard initial time.

    wehey :)

  • whenever i feel like going back into the death trap that is nicotene i think about why i quit and the people that love me and want me to be around!! i also take a look at some videos of people with lung cancer and other illness due to smoking. i also listen to my motheer cough like shes about to hack up a lung after smoking 45 years and i dont want to be her!! im 32 yrs old and started when i was 14!! 18 yrs of damaging my body that im supposed to take care of! i have a husband and a 9 yer old that love me!! my son told me he wants me at his wedding and to be a gma to his kids one day!!! keep strong...get thru the rought patches and you will be happy that u did!!!!! im sure everyone has someone to live for...even if its just yourself!! your worth it :)

  • Hi Cheesy

    Im an hr at a time in an 1hr 1/2 i will 5 days of the rolling tobacco to me thats a miracle specially the amount of roll ups i smoked i was in the shop getting paper and there it was Golden Virgina got the paper and hurried out but thats really been the only bad bit of the day im lucky i can take patches and inhaler first few days it was never out my mouth but the last 24 hrs its not been in my mouth all the time im on the 3mths program from our chemist which give you them for free to try to help you stop so hang on in there my friend ive never set my self a target and infact i tell everyone im trying to stop but thinking about it im amazed ive reached this far so should you be well done

    all the best

    Rab

    I had to give up smoking on Tuesday 11-1-11 just before I had my 2nd collar bone operation (the 1st time the bone didnt unite, probably due to smoking) so the reason for giving up is medical. Ive been a smoker for 18 years and am now 32.

    Im finding it a bl**dy nightmare, I just want to fight / kick / shout at anything that comes my way. The worst thing is that I cant go to the shop and buy a nice (mmmm.) pouch of tabacco with a packet of blue papers with extra slimline filters. :( If I do I risk my bones not healing together.

    On top of that Ive always smoked my daily spliff in the evening to keep life, well, semi-interesting. I cant even do that anymore.

    I dont like patches or inhalers as they feel like firing blanks on guns, and they also dont satisfy above. Champix makes people depressed.

    Ive told myself 6 months no smoking then I can light up again (perfect timing for summer) but s**t man, 6 months is such a long time. Ill go insane before then!

    The giving up smoking hurts more than my broken collar bone. No joke.

    I miss it though, it me, my personality and everything. And its been put on an excruciatingly painful hold.

    Help! life sucks

    Nico

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