Hi guys,I have already made some progress through ERP. I suffer from homosexual obsessive thoughts and currently I am preoccupied with thoughts that I don't really want to get better and be straight, that I have lost my heterosexuality or am just imagining it. Somehow I know it's not true, but it's still like buried under the obsessive thoughts and very weak. The relationship with my boyfriend has been strengthened by the therapy, I have been able to allow more closeness again and our sexuality is no longer so disturbed by the thoughts. Sometimes it's still the case that when I see attractive men my head makes me feel insecure again and tells me that I don't really find them attractive and that I'm actually a lesbian, it's so annoying, maybe that sounds familiar to you too. I'm afraid that it's my real conviction because I don't feel anything when I have these thoughts or am no longer afraid. I hope that my life and my relationship with my boyfriend will go back to the way it was before these thoughts. Will I soon realize that my sexual orientation has not been lost or changed because of these thoughts? I'm still pretty unsure at the moment.
I look forward to hearing from you and am very grateful for your advice.
Maybe I still need a little time until the healing finally takes place and the uncertainty is normal in the meantime.
Thank you for your answers and help