Tonight my boyfriend saw ALL my OCD post about my thoughts and some of my thoughts were “I want black dick” and “I’m thinking of my ex’s dick” and “I like black men” and “I want a big black man to string me out”
He. saw. It. All
And he searched it up after I told him not to.
I feel…. Horrible, I feel l violated and livid because I never told a soul about these thoughts. And they bothered me during my second week of Lexapro.
Now he isn’t talking to me and I’m left wondering. What do I do? I feel like it was wrong for him to search up and look as well. Intrusive thoughts can be…violating.