Scared of Psych

[BuellersFerrisWheel]

Hi everyone! I'm Ferris, not my real name just for online :), and I've been experiencing some mental health issues recently. I've been eating and sleeping a lot more but in a very unhealthy way and I've lost interest in most of my activities. I find it hard also to talk with friends like I used to and everything I do say feels like a cry for help. If anyone knows anything about personality types, I'm a type 4 on the enneagram and I'm very comfy with feeling of sadness normally. This is confusing because right now I'm very uncomfortable with what I'm experiencing and 've had thoughts of endangering myself and sometimes acted on those (about 3 attempts just this month). I'm also crazy threatened by the thought of going to a psych ward and I feel as if it would make me worse, even though I know this is where I would go if I talked to anyone. I really don't want to shove this on anyone so I thought maybe I could come here instead for help. this has been going on for months now. I'm not currently diagnosed with anything, but I can't get help without alerting my parents, and I don't want to make them upset. I think it may be depression or bipolar, but the issue is that I still have fun sometimes. I still feel genuinely happy for a little bits of time throughout the week and it's making me feel like I'm faking it all even though I know I'm not. I really just need support, and to know how I can get help. Sorry for the vent lol. How was y'all's day?

[LazyXrayEyes2255]

The thing about telling doctor or using the mental health hospital, they put you on medication and then monitor you. I'm on medication and they have changed doses and it has side effects, like I get slight shaking. Or bodies react differently and you may not experience any side effects and you will try the medicine to work that out. But good for the brain, as works on it like medicine should. Don't be scared of anyone as their only job is to help you. Then you get the support and can go on their courses on mental health to better manage your condition etc