Feeling better?..

[Shabbaa]

I've been reading a lot of posts on here.. And in a strange way with out this sounding horrible.. Seing people write about how they feel.. Makes me feel better.. And not because people are having a bad time.. But people feel the way I feel? People are going through similar things? Just like me?

I've noticed people use this site sort of like a journal.. And I've always found writing in books made me feel better.. Just being 100% truthful in what I write down.. But I guess this site is better than a journal because when I'm feeling low.. And writing just doesn't seem to cut it.. Here you can get surrport and help.. So I think I'm going to start writing posts here..

100% truefull.. Even if I don't get replys that's ok.. Because it's just nice to vent.. And if someone could help me with whatever situation im in is an extra bonus..

So today I haven't done anything.. Other than sit on the sofa watching TV.. Haven't really spoke to anyone today either.. But sometimes even when I feel alone.. I kind of like that? Sometime just for me?

But when the night creeps up that's when these sad thoughts run through my mind?.. I know I'm only 22.. But when I was younger I never pictured my life the way it is?... No job.. And empty flat were its just me?

I have 3-4 friends.. But not the kind of friends I feel I could open up to on how I feel? I have a mother who I adore.. But just couldn't put her threw more stress explaining to her how I feel?.. She has a lot on her plate at the minute and I wouldn't want her worrying over me?

I've been sober for about 4 days now.. I'm not an alcoholic.. And I don't believe that I am.. I just use drink as an escape sometimes.. Take away some of the pain I do feel.. And sometimes it's just nice to get out of the flat and socialize with people?

But today hadn't been to bad.. There's been worse days.. Tomorrow I do actually have to shower thou.. And go out of the flat.. Witch for some reason scares me? I genuinely don't know why it does as I don't suffer from anxiety.. Think it's just the thought of facing the world again.. I haven't moved out of the flat for about 4 days now.. Just sat on the sofa and haven't moved.. So maybe that's why I'm feeling a little scared about having to move? I dunno..

But I think that's all I have to say tonight

But feeling positive and going to sleep feeling ok I guess so goodnight everyone..

Xoxo

[Hidden]

Your post was wonderful to read articulate and so many of the feels you expressed are how a lot of members if this club feel always here for a chat ian

[Shabbaa in reply to Hidden]

Thanks for you reply Ian im new to this site to.. But seing people feel how I feel.. And some of the people are actually getting better.. Makes me feel like there will be light at the end of the tunnel for me too.. Can only hope hay?

Same for you if you ever just wanna chit chat

[faySa]

It has been such a relief for me to find other folks going through the same thing. I am new to this site but have had a couple of challenging years behind me. Depression is a very selfish illness and can be a very lonely place, but there is something about not being the only one out there that gives you encouragement to keep going. Somehow knowing that you are not alone.....

[Shabbaa in reply to faySa]

It is a relief in a way because it gives you hope that there's that many people feeling the way we feel that we could all help each other out of the dark times

[Hidden in reply to Shabbaa]

100% right !!!

[AfriendofJesus]

How are you ?

[KrisPlus2]

Been there, done that. For me, it's laying in bed reading trashy novels. Still in my pajamas by bedtime. Dragon breath. No human contact.

My solution was to pick one task to do in a day, then do it. And make sure it's a task I feel up to that day, so I can succeed at it. It can be utterly trivial and effortless, and that's ok. Examples: put half the clothes on my floor into my laundry basket. Wash the dirty cups in my sink (not all the dishes). Feed my cat. Sweep the front porch only. Brush my teeth.

If I can set a goal (no matter how little and stupid it is) and then achieve it, a few days in a row, then I know I'll start to feel better soon.

-K

[Shabbaa in reply to KrisPlus2]

If I could live and my pajarmers and go out in them.. I would never get dressed again! There to comfy to get out of! Especially when your in your nice cosy bed... But I like your idea of setting those small tasks.. I probably tried to set to big tasks.. And that's why I never seemed to et anywhere.. So I think I'll give your idea a go

Even If I just get half dressed? Like just put a clean t-shirt on and do my dishes..

Hope your ok

[KrisPlus2 in reply to Shabbaa]

Half dressed is AWESOME!

[UNknown_nichole]

You no what we are going through and that great... One power person will pull us all throw it! Just put one foot in front of the other and don't look back... Turn around for the good and not that bad KEEP MOVING forward everyone!

[trekster22]

Thanks for sharing your thoughts, it really helps to know you're not the only 1