I'm just asking for some help

[foxblood238]

So i've been dealing with a lot lately. I just recently moved out on my own thinking it would help. I've been verbially and physically abused most of my life, and I've also grown up with a narcissistic father. And now, with living on my own, everything has all of sudden hit me. It was fine for the few months of me living on my own, but now all the mental strains that are happening inside my head is hitting me like a freight train. And I'm scared to ask for help.And it's just hurts, and I have trouble sleeping sometimes. I just, I don't know what to do so I am now reaching out and asking for help and see, if other people I'll dealing with the same things I'm dealing with right now. And it's very hard for me to do this because I bury everything inside of me, and I don't talk to anyone. Because there's days that it sucks and I just wanna talk. I don't want to go to work. Cause I'm feeling depressed.

And I'm mentally unstable, but I know I still got to work, so I bury it that way too. I threw a fake smile on my face. And act, happy for the day, but deep down, I'm upset. And confused I don't know what's going on. And then I have anxiety on top of it because I don't want to call into work. I want to keep working because now living on my own. I have bills to pay, and then I stress over that too because of all the mental stuff that's going on in my head. So I asking for help finally, and I have a lot of stuff to talk about, but I don't know who to talk to about it. And I've also have panic attacks ever so often.

And I freeze up to and I don't know how to deal with it. And I can't sleep. I've been up for the past 2 and a 1/2 days and can't sleep and I've gone to work.

And I got to work to them and I don't know how I can do it. So at the moment i'm thinking i'm calling in today.'cause I mentally can't do it and I just want to break down and cry. But I don't know how I have trauma from a house fire. Because I've lived in the same house with that. Had 3 house fires in it. And no one's ever asked me if that was okay for me and every day the date comes around, I get reminded of it and I have panic attacks over it and I get headaches over it. And it hurts and even thinking of it. My head spins in circles, it hurts, and it's like pressure on my head and I don't know how to ask for help. And then, when I'm just trying to think of stuff to change my mind, it hurts and currently writing this, I have lots of pressure in my head. It feels like there's a car sitting on top of me. And there's a lot of pressure on me and it hurts to talk, because I'm finally letting stuff out to talk. I haven't done this a long long time. And i'm asking for it now.

[Vonus5591]

Writing down your thoughts, helps you see patterns and where you need the most help. It can help when talking to others about your problems like therapists. Learn and understand your feeling by asking why do I feel stressed or what triggers you and effects you the most especially try to avoid or learn to cope with better ways. Try to post and ask for others who feel same how they deal with it. Learning meditation, guided ones 5 min on youtube just google. This can help with breathing techniques and can help when having panic attacks. Focus on your mental health care and relax and slow down. Don't ask for more tasks and ask if others can help you in tasks. There are time management youtube which will help you also when it comes to work priorities. Feel like you by selfcare. I hope you will post more and chat with us again x

[Ticki]

I always go with the movie finding Nemo just keep swimming , just keep swimming ! One thing you can do to help yourself even something as little as giving yourself a hug. I’m giving you one.

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