It's nice to meeting you all. I'm not sure if it's the right place here because I don't suffer from depression but I don't know where I could write about this. I'm writing here because after having mild "food issues" in the past I lost interest in everything and I just enjoy being on those "Pro- Ana" websites or watching weight-related tv shows, eating disorders videos or shows which promote poor coping skills and are not good for my self-esteem.
I'm obsessed with very skinny people and with shows on disordered eating. I like to watch how other people eat and compare it to my habits. I love making food journals or having strange eating habits (drinking just tea for a few hours, eating 'clean or organic food', replacing food with liquids, cutting some categories of food out)
After looking at this stuff I desire to be thinner and I feel worse about my appearance. I'm also struggling with anxiety in social situations so It's hard for me to connect with people so I try to connect with people online because it's the only way I can feel connected without being forced to talk to strangers or start conversations and feel embarassed all the time.
I don't know if it's normal to spend so many hours a day on these websites or if I should talk to someone about this. it's like I putting myself in a bad mindset by looking for triggers that are not good for me but I don't know how to stop.
Do you look for triggering stuff when suffering from Eds, depression, anxiety,ecc?
Any advice on how to fight triggers?
Any comment is appreciated