Confused and broken

[Darklight_465]

Im sitting here wondering where I went wrong. Maybe im not good enough. Maybe im not meant to be happy. everything I do comes out wrong. I wanna scream my head of. I wanna close my eyes and be someone different. I wish I hadn't made so many mistakes. I wish people wouldn't keep bringing it back. I wanna run away far far away. where people don't know my past. where I would be welcomed and loved. Where maybe I can have a family that is not disappointed in me. where they would truly love me and not hurt me because im tired. I'm tired hurting, of crying , of screaming. Where I dont feel like I wanna run i front of a car but than stop myself because only a few people in my life are worth living for. someone please tell me what the answer to happiness because it seem like I cant find it

[Spirit85]

The first step to happiness is to believe that you deserve it!These negative thoughts will Bring you down and you will stay in the negative cycle.

You need to look around you... What is there to be grateful for and positive.

You're alive for one!! You're not a lone there is alwa someone to talk to if you want. Just try to be more positive and it will feel easier.

It will be hard to begin with... Go for a walk, clear your head. Just focus on your breathing.

[Darklight_465 in reply to Spirit85]

Im trying but its a constant battle. I started relying on other stuff like weed and such because is the only thing that is keeping me on my feet. But thank you for your words. I really appreciate it. 🙃

[Spirit85 in reply to Darklight_465]

Using things just means that you are using something to not deal with your situation.You are strong human being, you have made it this far, you can do it!! Honestly!! Try not to rely on other substances.

What do you do? What are you good at? What do you enjoy?

I use a meditation app to help me. It's hard to begin with but you just have to concentrate on your breathing.

Everything will pass... You'll see.

[Darklight_465 in reply to Spirit85]

I like meditating, drawing, singing. Im trying to keep myself busy with work. Im doing a little better

[Spirit85 in reply to Darklight_465]

That's good then, that you can find things to enjoy. See that's a positive! And that you have work to do too, that's another positive.Glad to hear you're feeling a bit better.

Things are never as bad as they seem.

You have made it this far after all.

WELL DONE 😊😊

[Darklight_465 in reply to Spirit85]

Thank you!!!

[Petrina_gmfc]

Hi I am here if you want to talk to

[Darklight_465 in reply to Petrina_gmfc]

thank you Petrina_gmfc

[Petrina_gmfc in reply to Darklight_465]

Hi hope you are feeling well 😊

[Darklight_465 in reply to Petrina_gmfc]

Im feeling a bit better

[Petrina_gmfc in reply to Darklight_465]

That's good to hear you know that you can get me on here anytime 😉

[Darklight_465 in reply to Petrina_gmfc]

thank you!!

[Petrina_gmfc in reply to Darklight_465]

How are you doing today 😊

[Darklight_465 in reply to Petrina_gmfc]

im good hbu???

[Petrina_gmfc in reply to Darklight_465]

Not great just now in a lot of pain with my back and knee but I will get there at

[Darklight_465 in reply to Petrina_gmfc]

I hope you do im sorry you are feeling like this

[Petrina_gmfc in reply to Darklight_465]

Morning how are you doing hope all's well with you x

[Darklight_465 in reply to Petrina_gmfc]

hi just feel a little crappy but hopefully we will survive

[Petrina_gmfc in reply to Darklight_465]

Hi you will be fine how has your day been

[Darklight_465 in reply to Petrina_gmfc]

yeah im just really sad I think everything is my fault

[Petrina_gmfc in reply to Darklight_465]

What makes you think like that

[Darklight_465 in reply to Petrina_gmfc]

just idk i feel like my parents are always fighting over me or sum I done I cant do anything right

[Petrina_gmfc in reply to Darklight_465]

Don't worry about it you will be fine mind I am here if you want to talk to .

[INSPIRED3234]

Im in the same boat right now. I read a little watched amovie n smoked now i feel a little better. Sometimes its habits that cause depression/anxiety. Hope your doing well. I will b her if you feel worse or just want to talk

[Darklight_465 in reply to INSPIRED3234]

Thank you INSPIRED3234 i been relying a lot on smoking and I feel like I shouldn't have to smoke to be happy but at the moment it feels like its the only thing that helps me ):

[406M]

Hi Darklight,I’m so very, very sorry you’re going through this. Please know you’re not alone, but part of a tribe who understands your struggle. You’ve made a big step in reaching out.

If you didn’t have a leg, you’d not expect to walk in the same way everyone else does. You’d learn to cope, though movement would require more time and effort for you than for others. You’d use a prosthesis, a crutch, or a wheelchair. You might learn to hop or even roll. It wouldn’t be unexpected for you to lean on someone, occasionally.

Unfortunately, neuroatypical brain disorders can’t be seen. They stem from a lack/imbalance of chemicals essential to neurotransmitters and result in handicaps as real as a missing leg. But you look like everyone else. Your expectations, and those of the people in your world, are based on a false perception.

If amputees were expected to move like their two-legged counterparts, without benefit of prosthesis or crutch, they’d likely fall on their faces. (How often has that happened to you)? But when ADHDers fall on their faces, they’re called lazy or unmotivated or incompetent. They feel like failures for being unable to process information like everyone else, even though lacking the cerebral equivalent of a “leg”.

The good news is that, if you can accept the realities of living with ADHD and it’s attendant issues, you can learn to cope, function and be successful. The creativity and out-of -box thinking often associated with neuroatypical brains can actually be beneficial. It will just take time, effort and perhaps some chemical or behavioral crutches.

The big hump to get over is often dealing with the unfairness of being born with a neuroatypical brain and needing to work ten times harder than everyone else just to stay in the game. You can choose to be angry and unhappy and wallow in self-pity, you can choose to give up and drop out; or you can choose to understand, accept and get on with it. You might need to lean on someone occasionally. Just know we’re all on the ride with you - doing our best to cope and compensate - sometimes stumbling, sometimes succeeding. Good luck, my dear.

[Darklight_465 in reply to 406M]

Thank you!!! Thats how I feel sometimes like I cant walk or I can get up and continue to do everyday task. But im trying really hard to feel better.

[406M in reply to Darklight_465]

Hang in there. It doesn’t necessarily get easier, but it becomes easier to cope. Keep reaching out. We’re there for you.

[406M in reply to 406M]

Do you follow How to ADHD on YouTube? If not, give it a try. Really, really good stuff (and cheerful, as well).

[Darklight_465 in reply to 406M]

thank you !!!