i’m not sure if it’s just me, but i literally have the inability to deal or process my emotions most the time. like i will literally try to avoid thinking about a certain thing in hopes to not feel anything. most the time i can’t process my emotions, even happiness. i don’t like to but i want to, but i can’t do it? it stresses me out because then i get all confused and then get annoyed with myself.
and on top of that, i can never make a simple decision. it takes me so long to make a choice it’s ridiculous and i can’t even hurry myself up! i need someone else to point me in the direction or i need someone to tell me.
i don’t know what i feel anymore. truth be told, i don’t know if i do feel anything anymore. all i know that i feel is confusion. and frustration.