I’m writing today because I don’t know what else to do.
As of this past February I’ve lost everyone in my life that I’ve ever loved.
The grief and despair that I feel is deafening.
And I guess I just need to vent.
I see my therapist on a weekly basis for the most part and last week I told her that I was only living to take care of my cat Tigger. I don’t have any children, my animals I adopt are my children and I make a commitment to care for them and give them my all. I always adopt from a shelter.
I think it’s just now hitting me how alone and sad I feel about my losses.
When my boyfriend of 13 years got diagnosed with fatal brain cancer I was busy seeing him everyday at his rehab and making sure that he was well taken care of. I admit when it comes to people or my pets I don’t take crap from anyone.
Then Covid hit and I know I’m not alone with how that has taken a toll on everyone .
As I watched all the news about Covid I don’t think I really felt the loss of my boyfriend.
I don’t know, I just needed to talk